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Alpha + JYP audition.

2012-01-14T20:14:00.001+08:00

Hi people, Please tell me HOW not to feel heartache. Please.

First of all,

this is my audition number I got today.

Looks familiar yeah? Guess what came out for the FIRST PRIZE for 4D today? T_T
8730.

While I was waiting for my turn, I got this strong sense of feeling I will strike 4D today, I 仿佛 heard a sound asking me to buy my number, system roll. (which means 24 打)

Of course, at that point of time, I didn't think that much. but right after audition, I went to buy porkchop for my brother.(since he lend me his car). & then the strong feeling comes again. Thus, I asked the auntie(selling pork chop) if there is any singapore pool around, & even showed her my no. & talked some crap with her.

So, when I reach home. I pleaded my brother to buy 4d for me, he refused. hence, I called my mom. She says okay, then I suggest to share with her, cause the system roll is kinda expensive.

Now, I feel really IDIOT+STUPID+HEARTACHE, cause I didn't double check my sticker, & I told her to buy 0397. then I went to paste my sticker on the altar. then I went for my nap.

So, my mom & bro tried to call me (but my phone was switched off). they wanted to tell me that I almost strike the first prize. Till my mom comes to my room and screamed me awake. She saw the sticker & say, I told her the wrong number, if not I would have strike the first prize.

TELL ME, TELL ME HOW NOT TO BE SAD. :<
it is like, i have this strong sense and feeling. & yet, I hastily say a no without checking (cause I was eating pork chop). The porkchop is sure expensive.
& if I totally never buy at all, I might feel less unhappy.
The feeling of buying but buy wrong no, & yet the actual no came out first prize is totally NO GOOD. NO GOOD. NO GOOD.

HAISH.
命里有时终须有，命里无时莫强求。
But now, the money is sent right in front of me & yet I pushed it away.

DUMB-F**K.
everyone is laughing at my stupidness. I so wanna cry.

& my audition didn't went well.
I was asked to shift in while I was singing. Was about to sing chorus, & they ask me to shift in. Oh well, think it is because I don't have the looks nor appearance nor figure. SAD LIFE.
I wasted 6 hours of my life.
& let the chance of striking first prize slip away.
Maybe I should say, I threw it away myself.

SO UNCOOL.

PUT YOUR HANDS UP!

2012-01-12T01:10:00.001+08:00

I freaking passed the MENSA test.

Read that? 156, top 99 percentile.

rofl, this was very unexpected.

let me tell you why.

1) I did not prepare for this test at all.& i slept freaking late the night before. T_T. maybe, just trying out IQ test with my tabby & online the night before. (my tabby IQ test, gave me the courage to take up this test)

2) The next door, (where I was having test) is playing HANDS UP by 2PM, I was so engross in it, singing with it tgt. apparently.. there are kids having party next door also. so you can imagine the screams, laughter & cries.

3) I went late for the test, couldn't find the place. so I went roaming around suntec with Yuxin. & I was running at the last 5 mins. dashing into the room. Dramatic much, but yeah.

4) I never thought myself to be this... capable. the thought of joining mensa has never came upon me. I only wanted to know my IQ. but sadly, I only came to know that, this is not an official IQ test results. but good enough to gauge your IQ level.

5) My GPA of 2 has brought my morale and confidence, so so low. & I have never done super well in a test before. Perhaps , I should blame myself for not studying, and thank god for watching over me all these while. I am thankful how I always Pass my test, with minimal studied done. I simply took things for granted ya.

I need to do some self-reflections.

okay, i think 2012 is going well:)

(in fact, 2011 dec is pretty awesome!)

please continue to stay this way!

except that, out of 11 day, I am sick for 9 days?

Diarrhea, constipation, fever, cough, flu, headache, sore throat, what's new?

I am so scare now, as the doctor says that there might be something wrong with my stomach. & i have HPB, what?!!!!!!!? Haishhh...

Nevermind, Need to build up my stamina.

I will be healthier!

Ohmy, I feel some sense of achievement now!^^

I am not that useless and stupid afterall!

I will be successful one day!

PS: I am not trying to be proud! I am just, still in a state of shock+happiness.

Some resolutions for 2012 now.

-Stay healthy

- Slim down. (air stewardess? hahahaha. inside joke)

-Class 2B

-Grade 1 and above cert in 1/2 musical instruments

-Some skills certificates.

-Spend lesser!

- Have at least 4-5 figure in my bank account. (before decimal)

-Pull up my GPA

-Go to at least 2 countries (other than Malaysia & hatyai!)

-Pass my JYP audition. (not that impt, but yeah!)

-Do more Community Services! :D

realise what?
i didn't put things like, XXX brand bags, YYY brand watch, ZZZ brand heels, AAA brand clothings, BBB brand camera, etc etc.

reason being, I grew up already. so, I feel that all these are necessary, they are my desires. LOL

I AM JUST KIDDING.

cause these items are in my wishlist!

& my wishlist is forever changing.

however, I need to control on my spendings.

So yeah, GOOD LUCK TO ME.

okay, byebye!

my FM tutor gonna debar me from exams soon.

fml, he has no rights to do so.

& if he does that. I will definitely blow this matter up.

USS with Hilda & Ping!

2012-01-02T14:38:00.000+08:00

2011 in a nutshell.

2012-01-02T14:03:00.002+08:00

2011, a year where I faced many obstacles in life, experience things that I never thought I would be experiencing, go through pains that made me felt as if like there were thousands needles pricking me.

but! despite all these, I went through it. I thank god for watching over me all these while. Life has never been so exciting and tormenting and happy. I survived my 18 years of life. Happily, angrily, excitingly, fruitfully, wastefully, adventurously. 至少，我18年来没有白活了。 I survived it & I will continue surviving. However, there are many more things I want to achieve in life. You can never imagine my disappointment and sadness when I feel so useless.It is like, I am turning 18 and yet I have achieve nothing great in life. T_T. this is how useless I felt. I don't care how people are consoling me by telling me majority of the youngster at my age are the same as me, or say that I am actually much better than alot of them already. Yes, I agree to some extend. but no way am I gonna compare myself with them. I know what I want in life. & why not I compare myself with those people who are much more greater than me at my age?

Aja, aja, I gotta work harder. my grades in poly are in a horrendous state. but, I will definitely shine after poly. this is a promise made to myself. who knows my face might appear on forbes in 5 years time? who knows, I may earn my 1st bucket of gold by 21st? I have to push myself to live to my own expectations.

Initially, I wanted to make 2012 resolutions, but I find it pointless if I make a whole long list and didn't even achieve them. Thus, I have to really think through what I want instead of aiming for something I can't even achieve in 2012. But of course, I dare to dream. :)

back to the topic.
how shall I go about it.

2011- December.
I reckon this is the most happening month of 2011.
firstly, I went clubbing in singapore for the very first time. (totally not my style & I don't like) haha.
went to help out for harmonica camp.
then, I passed my driving! (hurray)
then I went to KL for a most memorable and touching birthday dinner.
then it is my mommy birthday!
Next, I went USS with ping & hilda. Fun enough. :)
I passed the interview & I will get to work in the airport! :D CIP terminal!
(although it is so far from my place, but it should be damn fun!)
then New Year counting down with my best peers. :D
& I won mahjoong! haha

2011- November.
not that splendid. was kinda stress over several matters and I didn't want to recall them.
I failed my first TP. feels so useless.
I went to USS & RWS! :D with my favorite cousins!
but I get to meet friends all the way from japan! :D
& I went MAMA! so fun & exciting! but a hole in the pocket.
& guess what, i almost got to go Japan, fukuoka. I am the 3rd person on list, but there were only 2 slots. FML. it is okay, try harder next time.

2011- October
trying to adjust my life back after the holidays.
honest enough, I can say, I still don't enjoy my poly life. T_T.

2011- September
A working month.
My first ever experience working in the IT fair.
hahaha, TOP SALES. beat that yo!
and then I went to work as a marketing researcher for Meji.
bad experience. totally!
I have a new baby niece! :D

2011- August
I guess it is all about exams and projects and etc. dangggg..couldn't recall much.
Oh yea, I almost got to be a scarer for holloween horrors.

2011- July.
School again? what else?

2011-June
I went to RWS and Bangkok!
& a wedding dinner in Kluang- Malaysia!
so enjoyable.

2011- May
the start of my new school year. why may & not april? continue reading.

2011- April
broke my leg. had my first operations in my life.
&, on cast for 1.5 months. hmmm..

2011- March.
My birthday, went zoo, & had celebrations with my friends. cool enough.
& CSCC d&d, I won the first prize. haha.

2011- Feburary.
CNY? haha, I can remember lah. shucks.

2011- January.
My pea size brain, really cannot make it already.
Guess I should really blog frequently in 2012. at least once a week. hahaha.

okays.
that is all.

2012, please be an awesome year. bring me some joy & happiness.! & wealth! Thank you!

2011-11-09T00:55:00.000+08:00

This feeling, totally sucks.
Crying over something, guilty over something
feeling miserable cause I am freaking unwell.

I just don't know why.
I am so antisocial now, so unfriendly and I hate hanging out with my peers.
it hurts so much that I know I am being 'outcasted', 'neglected', 'thrown away'.
but I have no other choice.
they just don't like me, I can't expect myself to be so thick skin.

I hate explaining myself. I hate sharing my stories.

& I convince myself,
that it is okay to be alone, it is okay to have no friends.
everything will be ok.

but I can't help feeling sad when others are happy together, & I am all alone.

there are so many stories untold, and no one bothers to listen to them.
& I am numb now, totally.

guess, I will be fine, & i will get use to being alone someday.

I am sad, totally. but no one ever cares.

I don't even know what is wrong with me.

I can't appear sad in front of my family. they will say that I am mad, or too sensitive.

I guess it is my dad that make me change.
he make me feel that, in this world.. you can trust no one. no one but yourself.
and after all those incidents. I totally hate living in this world.

I learnt that, we can make no one understand us. cause I can't even understand myself.

I envy, envy people who have caring friends, envy people who has a loving family.
I have neither.

everyday, my heart is dying a little inside.

I just feel that everyone hates me.
I am sucha jinx.
everyone doesn't like my presence.

I don't even know why I exist.

I feel so inferior about myself.
I feel so lousy.
I feel so stupid.
I feel so mean.
I feel so ugly.
I feel so fat.

I know I am not in the worst situation. but I am just not strong enough to face all these.

people are not oblique to understand you. You have to understand yourself.

when people misunderstands me, I know I have all rights to speak up for myself.
but I held back.

LAZY

2011-10-25T22:59:00.001+08:00

Just too lazy to blog.
:D

Am actually very sad.

2011-10-15T01:55:00.001+08:00

T_T

I am becoming more & more anti social nowadays.
Idk why. I just can't help it.
I can't even smile and laugh like before.
I have the feeling that everyone dislike me.
and I don't know the reason why.
I might be thinking too much, but I can't deny that people do hate me.
If not, why am I always the one getting outcasted?
why am I always the one getting teased and bullied?

I hate people who come and go in and out of my life.
I am too gullible & I am always being taken advantage of.
thus, I hate making new friends. & I can't be bothered trying to contact those old ones anymore.
I think they will find me irritating.
yes, horrifying fact I have found out.
even my sec sch classmates which I thought who will stays with me forever, are irritated by me.
this shows how irritating I am.
so for now, I dont bother them anymore. I wont initiate.
I feel that there is no point.
people will stay connected with you, if they want to.
so if you want to stay in contact with me, you have to put in effort.
please don't expect me to make the first move ever again.
(i am sick of being thick skin)
and also, if I dun wan you in my life, I wouldn't be bother to entertain you.

I am just so sway.
Everyone just love targeting me.
even for the slightest mistake. IDK why.
it is like. "A" do the same thing as me, but I am always the one being told off.
it has been like that since young.
I have never wanted all the attentions given to me.
& I have never wanted to be the centre of attractions.
No, I never wanted to. it just happens.
but, since I am losing all that now.
I miss those times.
those times, where you're so 'popular' and everyone is your friend.
you treat everyone nice, even if there might be some people bitching about you.
You will still prove yourself right in the end.
I miss that old me.

I want to be that miss nice, miss cheerful.
the one that goes around consoling people.
but, I am tired already.
I have no one to seek to.

People whom I thought are my friends isn't really my friend.
there is no one in my contact list where I can call at 3am, and he/she would pick up my call and share my sorrows.
there is no one where I can share all my problems with.
maybe I always have the principle, to not let my burden be others' burden.
but I am so stress and tired now.

People always think that I am from a good family.
but, don't assume if you don't know anything.
my life is worse than those female lead in taiwan serial dramas.
I am serious, cause I find no point living.
I live everyday with excitement, anger, frustrations, fear, and maybe some happiness.
it is like a mixed feelings.

I doubt no one ever reads my blog. that is why, I enjoy blogging more than anything.
I can't even be myself on twitter/facebook.
there are so many people out there who don't know a single shit.
and they guess/assume/make-up stories, just to gossip about you.
sometimes, they 'acted' like they care.
but in fact, they just want to bitch about you. BEHIND YOUR BACKS.

I have had enough.

I guess it is time for a change.
maybe life will be better if I portray a better image.
so, I guess the first step I would do is to change the outside.
1) cut hair.
2)slim down.
3)dress good to feel good.

next, is my inner soul.
I need to build up my self-esteem and confidence.
I need to find back that kindheart of mine. (I am becoming so heartless now:<)
I need to do what I have to do.
I need aims.

It is okay not to be okay.
It is okay to be alone.

Time will show you everything, and your heart will tell you how to judge.
my accident during april is the best one to show me the ugly side of human.
it clearly shows me that who cared. who pretended to cared.
1) definitely my family members. (most of them)
2) that few friends of mine.
other than that, I have nothing.
you don't have to feel guilty if you didn't show your concern, cause I don't really need that as well.
but please, if you were to bitch about me, or to pretend that you cared.
seriously, I don't need you in my life.
you will never know how I feel if you are not me.

Anyway, I will let you say what you have to say, I know the 'me' best.

Thank you for putting me through all these. I will be better.

*fighting*

fetish for shoess! :D

2011-10-14T00:27:00.002+08:00

Hi all! today was an awesome day!

I never had so much fun with my classmates! YAY!

although not everyone went but still! i enjoy the dinner! & the buying of shoes! :D
& the Kbox with YY! <3

SPOT ME! :D

alrights! back to the topic!

shoes shoes!

freaking hell shoes!

flats, pumps, wedges, heels, canvas!

I (think I) LOVE SHOES! :D

Thanks to Mitju warehouse sales!

I bought 7 pairs of shoes!

$74 only! what a steal right!

However,

they dont carry my sizes for many designs I like! :X

(thank god in a way! if not, I might buy like 15? or 20? pairs)

DAMN IT.

Y U NO HAVE MY SIZE! :S

Sadded.

Let me show you what I buy ya!

of course the picture does not justify it ah!

And the sizes for each shoe is different! some is because of the cuttings! some it because I had no choice.

FYI. I am a size 5.5-7.5.

which is. 37-39.( approximately)

It depends on the cuttings and the designs! I like some shoes to be loose:)

I know I have a small feet for my big body.

now you know the reason why I am always falling :X

Yeah, almost fell while crossing the road just now again!

SHoes galore!

YY got the same pair! :D

this is anyhow buy one.

this is size 37, fits just nice. (although i wanted 38)

one of my fav!

This is too big :X hur-hur. size 40. it seems okay while trying. SO SAD.

but the lady say that I can put padding.

I can wear this go school!

This is size 41, but it is damn comfy! ;D

& earlier this month!

i bought this shoe online!

have not worn it yet!

so I took a picture of it as well!:D

Okay!

time to clear my shoe rack!

so many shoes :X

I am guilty for a second.

Girls will never have enough of shoes right?

& a happy thing, the like, over 10 pairs of flats my sis bought during her pregnancy belongs to me now! :D

(although i already spoilt some? it is about to spoil anyway)

YAY! I LOVE SHOES YO!

those with ribbons,

polka dots,

flowers,

charms.

basically almost everything.

if I like, then I will buy! hehe!

+ slippers, & every other shoes I have.

(heck care bout sandals, etc. I can't differentiate some of them! :X

Let's name it all, SHOES)

okay, I think I have over 100 pairs of shoes.

GUILTY, GUILTY.

I don't even have so many legs!

& some shoes, I buy & I nv wear :X

But some are so cheap/nice/pretty/comfy,

it is like, if i dont buy.

I let myself down!

anyway, a sad thing is.... all my shoes don't last.

my fat feet spoils the shoes easily.

haish.

Okay!

enough of my shoes shoes shoes!

time to throw away those rotten ones!

Might take a picture of my shoe rack after I pack my shoes!

(NOT SO SOON THOUGH!)

byebye!

STRESS.

2011-10-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

why is life so tough and taxing?

I am so not enjoying it now. many times I told myself tomorrow will be a better day but then, something bad has to happen.

I don't know why must bad things comes at a go.

I understand that I am already having a good life as compared to others. but I am seriously stress.

Life isn't going the right way. everything is BAD.

I also don't know why am I feeling so depress. I really don't know.

I think I am so stupid.

not think, I am really stupid.

My studies is really bad, my grades are so lousy that I don't know what I can do for my future.

I don't understand why I have to spend so much on my driving. I am learning so slowly. it is like 2x the lesson, speed, money of what the average spent.

I am so so demoralized. depressed. demotivated.

there is no one to share my burden.

I don't know why i have to feel this stress. but I just can't help it.

I want to cry so badly but I can find myself a good reason to do so.

and at times like this, whereby I am already so low.

my brother had to rub salt into my wound. I just wanted to get some advice from him. and he can say things like, hope that I will take forever to learn, and I sure wont pass, pass already I sure langah, need waste money repair car. and I WILL BE A ROAD HAZARD :(.

i bet he didn't know all these words will hurt me, maybe he didn't meant it. but It makes me wonder if I am really that bad. :(

& then he had to criticise me about my every other little thing.

I am already not feeling that good already. :(

I just kept quiet, and texted my friends and mom.

thank god mom is encouraging, but I think she feels that I am stupid as well, just that she didn't want to make it too obvious.

Who is there to feel for me?

I am so envious of my friends that has caring siblings and loving parents. at least, they had someone to give them guidance in life. My dad doesn't even care about me, my mom has got so much to worry, my sis is having her confinement, my elder brother always criticized me, my second brother will also say me.

I am really tired.

I know i have to stop being so emotional and stop feeling so low, but it is just so difficult.

I dread working, but I have to work for money.

everything is about money. I am so poor now, that is another factor that adds on to my stress.

I don't know how long can I continue my positiveness, battery life is draining and I can't find a charger.

I AM NOT FEELING GOOD, NOT AT ALL.

it sucks to be me.

Poor Like Fish.

2011-09-26T18:44:00.000+08:00

I am like working, slacking, stressing, learning this holiday.
urghh, cheap labour. :X but I need MONEY. Haish.

today, I am uber duper sad can! cause... I missed my driving lesson.
I went to there at 15.20 and realised my lesson has been changed to 13.20. WTF?!
can like that one meh? I am pretty sure I booked 15.20 slot cause I jotted down in my schedule! & I am very 'xiaoxin' with such things cause it cost me $60 per lesson.
but I went today and realised, my lesson is over. WTF.
HOW CAN I NOT BE ANGRY+SAD+HAIR-STANDING.?
I totally felt like crying can! :< grrrrr...

So, it is time to earn back my money!
I am selling D.I.Y pens!

the price will be at $12 each.

what's so special? you can personalised this pen! choose the colours you want! & you can input your name/anything!

It will look something like this. but it will definitely be much nicer!

(this is my first/second try!)

Price: $12 each(exclusive of postage)

(buy 2 @ $22!)

Buy 10 get 1 free!!

Postage: $1

Pen: Pilot G-1 Grip.

Pen ink: Black, Blue, Green, Red.

Wordings & background colours: Up to your preference:)

* I will find similar colors or substitute will colors close to it (but I will ask you beforehand!)

Personalised it!: 4-8 letters!

Emoticons: Additional $1!

-heartshape

-smiley face

DO SUPPORT ME! :D

I know right, I am so lazy, just copy+paste.
But please support support kayes! help me ask around!! :D

Send in your orders thru e-mail, facebook or SMS/CALL me! :D
ai-poh@Hotmail.com
THANK YOU!

Little Raechelle~!

2011-09-20T23:59:00.005+08:00

My baby niece is out! After so long!! She is Pretty girl!! So happy that my sis delivery went so smoothly!:) and that the baby is healthy! They are a happy family of four now!!:)

I always felt that the growth of a newborn is so miracle. so scary but yet loving.

I am a happy aunt now! ( actually i am an aunt ever since i am born :/)

I LOVE BABIES.!<3

Belive it or not, I am a good babysitter kays!:) dont doubt me! I confirm can take good care of a baby de!

Cause hemama passed some skills to me! Her techniques of taking care babies/toddler/kids is imba one!! Really! All my siblings and me was brought up by her! & now my nieces!

So, i learnt most of the skills thanks to Ethan!:) my babyboy. Although i already know the basics since like primary? Whenever my relatives bring the babies here, i will have a share to carry them!^^ but most things i learnt when i was 13, when hemama took care of Ethan!:)

Now, i can be a 95% pro baby sitter.
Dobt know of i should be happy or not. Cause i feel that I am so auntie to know all these. A little about the dos and donts of the preggie woman. How to take care of babies, what to do when this this this happens. What to do when that that that happens. Doing all those things even a mother might not know. Guess What I cant do is only breatfeeding. Haha, just kidding yo. There is still so much more to learn! & I wanna learn! So that some knowledge wont be lost in the older generations. I shall not feel auntie and be proud of myself that i get the chance to learn!:) people in the past can take care of babies at young age lor! (like mama!). I wanna learn more bout confinement also!;)

Auntie jiu auntie lor, like what my friends said. I AM AUNTIE POH mah!

Yay!! Cant wait for my sis to come back from confinement!!
Me wanna take care of the baby! Hehe.

Happy & tired.
Need to work tmr! Ohmygod.

Byebye!!

What others can do, I can do it even better.

2011-09-12T19:42:00.000+08:00

I know I want to be the best, but that is fairly impossible.

From young, there seems like there is nothing I can't do. (as long as I want to)

but things aren't that easy when I start to grow older. :/

I see masters of different segments coming from all over.

It is by then, I know. I don't want to be the best, but I want to do my best.

Actions speaks louder than words? what I have done so far is plain talking.

I know I must do it, & I want to do it. but I am just lazy. (yes, I am very lazy)

I remembered that when I was young, I am such a diligent and smart girl.

I can do what others at my age can't.

I speak like a small adult, with mature thoughts and mentality.

I am very creative and ideas never fail to run through my mind.

I make everyone happy.

everyone loves and adore me.

I have a glib tongue. that makes everyone WOW when i open my mouth.

I can cook a whole 7 course meal at the age of 6.

I can bake nicely at the age of 7

I can tie all sorts of beautiful hairstyles at the age of 4.

I can draw.

I can repair items like when I was 3/4?

I can sing and dance cutely at the age of 2?

I can play different instruments.

I help out in everything I could, & I make sure I do a good job for it.

I am curious about everything and I am a fast learner.

my studies? it wasn't that splendid but I manage to get at least a B for all my subjects. & secure a A for chinese and maths in my 10+2 years education.

It was then when everyone think I am really a smart kid.

( not self-praising, really)

but things weren't same anymore.

I start to get lazy, and I never accomplished anything big in my life.

I hate myself for being so.

& I despise myself for not making full use of what god has given me.

I should have grab all opportunities, and make good use of my talents.

I just wasted everything.

& I find it too late to make changes now.

I am not that smart & lovely aipoh anymore,

I am just someone that find excuses for my mistakes, and never learn.

Someone that wasted her youth, someone that no one adores.

even if people tell me, actually I am doing better than many others already.

but I am not satisfied with myself.

Cause I know I can do much much more.

this is not demanding, I just want to make full good use of my life.

I want to live my life fruitfully.

I have my aims, my goals and my own point of views.

(so, please don't judge)

I am so demoralized now. :<

I want to prove to others that I can do it.

I want to show my talent, or at least, make good use of it.

I want to make use of what I can do to benefits the many others.

I want to be of a good use and help.

I want everyone to like me like they do.

Why aren't I doing anything now? :X

Although being simple is good, but my life aren't suppose to be so so simple.

I need some enhancement.

If others can do it, why can't I?

if others can't do it, whay don't I show them how to do it?

I know I can, it is only if I want to anot.

So, now. it is not 'I can' anymore, it is 'I Must'.

Jiayou everyone.

never give up.

You can fail, but you should never stop trying.

HYPER- ACTIVE DISORDER.

2011-09-12T02:19:00.000+08:00

Do I have it?

why do everyone says that I am very hyper?

Is it a good thing?

should I be happy?

At least, it prove that I am young & bubbly!

but at the same time, annoying & noisy.

Is it only me?

I thought everyone is the same? LOL.

Nevermind, at least I enjoy being myself!:D

pictures to be uploaded in next post!

byebye!

COMEX FAIR 2011

2011-09-06T00:17:00.004+08:00

I MISS COMEX SHOW.

although it was really tiring, but it was a great experience!!!

I think I got the overall Topsales yo! hehehe! *happy*

everybody really know how to sell yo! I still gotta learn!

Although I did boast a little about the product I am selling, but I did not lie to my customers hor!

& i fight for their free gifts! till I get whack by flyers. -_-

& I always reach earlier! do those "extras" (Actually is I act smart lah, don't need to do de lor :/)

& I help them be delivery girl kayes!

Selling cameras(a not so convincing brand) was really very memoriable!

first time working mah! very old to start, I know! (but everyone say I look like 15/16/17. hahaha!wtf!)

Only regret was....

I FREAKING FORGET TO BUY MY OWN CAMERA.

(mommy wanted to buy for me in the afternoon, but I was still waiting for closing)

& because I was too tired, & I forget about it! :X

goodbye discount/promotion/free gifts/TR100.

you are not fated to be mine!

But I swear I really like that camera!! :/ urghhh

WHY I SO SWAY?!

(not fated to be mine T_T)

I AM SO DAMN SAD LAH!!!

&I didn't take any of my boss/friends number, neither did I take any pictures with them.

too busy and tiring to do all these stuffs lah. haish.

but I do have some pictures to share! LOL

PS: I look damn nua, I know. all my colleague put make-up, eyelashes, Sui Sui go work. but I just go there blur like fish.

<3<3<3 Thanks yo!

Day 2, Cui already! Terrible headache, very little sales, slacking all the way!

So guilty!

but I was having a terrible headache!

Day 3!

My boss(michael/eldwin)/in-charge(s) were really 'nice' to me.!!

(give me present + *tips* leh)

Although they always bully me/make fun of me. (WHAT'S SO FUNNY?! :<), but IT IS OKAY :)

I need to stop being so blur about everything :X

(what doesn't kills, makes you stronger!)

got some colleagues also treat me very nice!

So touched!

My colleagues are all so friendly/pretty/cute/handsome?(not really)/funny/awesome!

(although I never talk to some of them lah)

In conclusion!

I had fun!

& I sold a total number of 72? 75? cameras. lol

last day, last hour was damn amazing.

I sold 16 sets in an hour plus. LOL.

FYI: I was already like having a damn bad throat. ROFL. sold like less than 10 sets in the day luh :<

I lost my voice. (pretty much voiceless now)- don't go jio me sing K, I will box you!

& My feet are aching!

I SURVIVED THROUGH IT!

thank you for those who came to visit! :D

thanks to those who came to Ka jiao.

thanks to those who bought the cameras from me!

& thank you boss/Full-timers/part-timers/yuxin for all the past 4 days!

I do miss all of you alot!! S_S

Wonder when will I get the chance to meet you guys again. haish. maybe next year?

till we meet again! haha

But please please,

I don't wanna dream/picture myself selling cameras, blowing whistle, repeating the same thing over & over again anymore! :S

I don't want the eldwin & emcee sound ringing in my head. $129 $129 NO.1!(ROFL)

Stop haunting me ahh.

So not fun to dream about cameras, promotions, sales.

SAME THING :/

I share one song with you ah!

my boss play every morning -_-.

till I also 'beh tio' this song! haha.

Damn familiar right!

I dunno listen at where before lor!

& I will never forget, myself running to samsung booth, just for a thai song! haha

byebye everyone!

Jack of all trades.

2011-09-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

Trust me, I am good at almost everything.

不是可不可以，是我要不要。

(not trying to be proud here, but indeed.. I am proud of myself! & I will make full use of myself! *Hope So*)

I am just trying to say, everyone can do it if they want to. :)

so, WAY TO GO yo! Never give up!!

Dr. Tan Cheng Bock, Please win!

2011-08-28T01:40:00.000+08:00

YAM AH MEE/ TAN CHENG BOCK.

2011-08-28T01:07:00.000+08:00

my title tells it all!

follow my twitter yo!
http://twitter.com/#!/aipoh

all my views are tweeted there! lol

I am waiting for Dr Tan Cheng Bock's Victory!

& I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YAM AH MEE! My Idol/darling! :D

Busy Busy Me.

2011-08-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

Hello all, Mooncake sales is over! :) thanks all for your support!

Oh well, I really have something to comment about this. The company which I am working for, which is the sole distributor of the mooncake I am selling, is horrible. I wonder how can a company go far with such POOR MANAGEMENT, and the overlooking of details and stuffs like that. I shall not name the company, but oh well. I have a terrible-horrible-scary experience working with them. (no doubt the mooncake I am selling is really good.) but, the company that I am working for, my agent? in really.. horrendous. Of course, I understand that they might meet some problems and troubles here and there, but those problems can be prevented if they have taken precautions and made better plannings! I am not saying like I am god damn great or something, but if someone like me... (which is not very good with my studies) can find so many problems with this particular company management. This company seriously have to do something about it.

I bet you will want to know what has happen.
let me do a summary.
I went for a briefing on 23/08/11, which is said to be starting at 3. (i reached at 3.10 because I am having my exams). Thinking that I am late, I rushed like hell.. and guess what?! the boss giving the briefing is even later, late for an exaggerating 1 hours and 45 minutes. He reached at 4.45, how horrible can that be? the training starts at 3. -_-

so, thinking that he is really busy, I decided not to be so bothered lah. ( I am now employee what, cannot expect too much right?) . then when I applied for the job. It states that it starts on the 1st-12th sept. (which is my holidays lah) and it is FLEXIBLE. meaning, you work on your own time and earn whatever you sell lah.

So, they changed everything... only after I have signed the contract. (fucking dumb of me). the contract mentioned that I must hit the sales of 100 boxes before getting my additional bonus. BUT THEN, that is when they told me that I have like 2-3 more weeks to sell, & all stocks available. (pre-order by next week).

So, after I happily sign the contract, thinking that I can sell 100 boxes. (I have confidence in myself lor!) they changed EVERYTHING the next day. (after I got some orders already).
1) Many flavours went OOS. (how to sell? you tell me. )
2) pre-order is by friday night. & later, chged to thus night
3) After next week, not taking orders already. cause.. factory might not be able to produce.
4) they can only give me the stocks on 7/8 sept. Great anot?
(initially, they told me anytime can get, unless is bulk purchase, then can get by pre-order which is on the 6-_-)
5) they expect me to go for training when there is nothing to sell. (OBVIOUSLY, I didn't turn up! the claim that training is to help me boost my sales, but I don't see any benefit to me & I see no point)

okay, wtf hor? then I called to argue with them for the OOS flavours and they can produce for me leh. so amazing. -_- & I feedback that, what they are asking is ridiculous and obviously unfair to me. I FEEL SO CHEATED. and they rebutted me with the contract I signed. FUCK, seriously. & they expect more than what they should from me.

This is a bad experience. I really feel like stopping everything at that point of time they freaking give me nonsense. But, i had no choice to continue selling. cause my friends already ordered. I don't want to break the trust between us, and I don't want to freaking ruined my own reputation.

So, in conclusion.. I just sell whatever I could. (not so hardcore anymore) and I manage to sell over 20 boxes lah.(in 2 days, by myself). Thanks all for the support. and my agent working for my company also quite poor thing lah. I swear I argued and demanded my rights from her, but there was nothing she can do. -_-. I bet she was earning from me, that is why she stills tolerates all my mean sentences said. (which is fact) . But I just have to understand their situation, and just have to swallow all these unfairness into my stomach. (eh, no. is by pouring everything on my blog).
ridiculous not? you tell me.

& I AM HAVING MY EXAMS YO.
they keep calling me and sms-ing me to tell me this & that. HOW TO CONCENTRATE?! (although I wont really study even if I am not selling :X just trying to push blame. lol)

Okay, that is the end, in between, there are some more nonsense man! but I chose not to mention it lah, LET BYGONES BE BYGONE. forget it, My loss, my mistake, my foolishness, my stupidity. just have to go deliver my goods when the stocks come. :)

Alrights, Exams.
Exams is bad. I think I gonna flunk it, like seriously. I don't lie and I see no point lying. I am just telling you guys how I felt about the paper, and seriously I think I am not doing well. Of course I hope I can get a B or something, but tell you lah, it is even harder than making pigs fly. :<. I swear I didn't do well. (how much can you expect from a person who studied only hours before the paper :( this is my bad). & these papers are freaking 50%. can determine my whole module's fate! @_@. why can't I sense the importance of it earlier ah? haish, too late to regret now. Hope I don't fail lah! *touchwood* (I better keep my notes first, just in case) 我的妈呀...I am really sad now..the sad+emo feeling occurs whenever I think about my exams scripts teacher, please pity me can? mark leniently leh. T_T. haish, I feel like disgusing as a robinhood or something and steal my exams scripts back.

Exams aren't over yet, & I act like my holidays are here already. I got 1 more 50% paper! I gonna do better this time round! maybe study 1 day before! Hopefully! I can get a B lah! please lah! Not expecting much right!

Okays, jump topic abit!
I went to training for my IT fair job. It is so cool to learn about the camera features and stuffs! and THANK GOD, no need wake up early for work! haha. (except first day I think?) but I don't have plain black/blue polo tee leh :< need go buy.. SIAN. :( but meeting up with yuxin is great! :D IMH, haish.

Jump topic again.
I wanna talk about Gmarket! haha. many of my friends are going gaga over Gmarket now. lol, if you have read my previous previous blogposts, which is like..... 1-2 years ago. I am already a Fan of Gmarket! at first, I have to admit that Gmarket is really awesome! cause got many Korea thingy! and many cute & unique stuffs. & the quality is not that bad also! but now, I feel that more & more bad quality goods are selling in Gmarket. (eg, clothes material thin like translucent, items like super M.I.C, those cheap & low quality type :<) So if you really wanna shop in Gmarket, must becareful! read the reviews and stuffs! some items waiting period is god-damn long./ LOL. like 2 months. haha. and some items are not exactly worth the price (not cheap) cause they tend to put lower price, then you have to add-on. (this is bad, make me happy for nothing!)
haha, anyway, I am not really a Gmarket hardcore fan now,(not like last time) cause I got sian of it? But I am still a fan of it! haha, will shop like once a week lah! haha. I must control myself abit. everytime shop there must spend at least like $50 or so. So, I better visit that website lesser! mark that down! haha. All the items are so addictive! some are really good, but 70% now are like what I have mentioned. So if you wanna shop, must check carefully.SHOP WISELY :) (don't be like me...T_T). Any Gmarket tips to share?

Oh! & I am also a Gmarket korea fan! haha, although I can't understand 99% of what they writting, but I use google translate things. haha. then can buy korean stuffs there! this is much more awesome and addictive! you usually wont spend much time on that website (cause you are unsure of the things) or you spend like hours (figuring out and looking through)

Besides Gmarket, is there any ebay users? or taobao? haha, I wanted to buy things from taobao but I have so many problems with the payment! pretty/handsome, anybody can help?? Initially, I thought Vpost can help, but like got many errors also! :< hmmmm...

alrights,
I guess that is about it.
I AM GONNA GO FOR A HAIRCUT SOON :< my hair is like weed now. not that thick, glossy and silky anymore. it is terrible now. I AM SO SAD. my mom told me to cut it off. haish.

Byebye!

MOONCAKES FOR SALES!

2011-08-23T22:47:00.022+08:00

PLEASE NOTE!
9337- Fortune Forever
9338- Red Bean
9332- Lotus paste(1 yolk)
9333- Golden Jade (1 yolk)
is TOTALLY OUT OF STOCK.
They have received full order liao :<

9331- Lotus paste with 2 yolk
I only have 9 boxes in hand now! First come first serve!

Please send in your order by 25/8/11 (night) to avoid disappointment!:)
any orders after 26/8/11 will be subject to availibity! while stocks last!

& you will get you orders on early sept! like.. 7/8/9/10/11! :D
definitely can get before the festival!
why september? you can get fresher mooncakes! straight from oven! :D

In the event that you wish to get your mooncake earlier, can request also! :)

& NOW!
If you order less than 10! you can get your mooncake delivered to your doorstep also! (additional $5!)

PLEASE HELP ME ASK AROUND ALSO!^^ can consolidate your orders! & get discount!:D

Please read below for more details!

Thank you!
---------edited 24/8/11-----------

各位大哥大姐，小弟小妹，阿公啊麻。来来来!
I am selling mooncakes! Please do support me!
To be honest, I need to sell at least 100 boxes to earn money! So, help me ok?

Since you guys will need/want to buy buy cake, why not get it from me?

At a lower price, you get good quality mooncakes that is on par with the mooncakes from those high-end retailers. (eg; hotels) & my one confirm look high class!!

PS: I don't have the picture of the box ah, you buy then you will know liao! haha! (JK, will take the picture of the box when I get my mooncake on thursday!) basically is a box. then you open got 4 individual pack mooncakes. all sealed by individual packings. & a knife. and it is placed on silk. WOW, like royal. haha

So today,
I will share with you what flavours/variety I am selling! :D

(can click to zoom in! :D)

Can see? I have type down the prices for you!^^

PS: Each set contains 4 pieces of mooncake! :) 1 knife! and 1 box! :D

9330- $36- Black Sesame Lotus (1 yolk)
9331- $36- Lotus Paste (2 yolk)
9332- $34- Lotus Paste (1 yolk)
9333- $36- Golden Jade (1 yolk) -pandan flavour
9334- $32- Pure Lotus Paste
9335- $36- Golden Jade Light (1 yolk) -Pandan flavour (not so sweet)
9336- $36- Pearly jade with omochi. -Green tea with Jap omochi! "yolk" made with yellow bean paste.(suitable for pure vegetarian)
9337- $36- Fortune Forever -五谷. made with 5 different Wheat&oats.
9338- $28- Red Bean
9380- $68- Special Set -2x 9330 + 2x9335 + 2x 9336 + 2x 9334!
(the box is more delicate for special set!!:))

*2x = 2 piece! :)

L:et me give you some information on the mooncake I am selling!
What's so special about it??
1) Our brand, 锦纶泰（Kam Lun Tai) (not clementi ah!) is established Since 1972. It is a famous traditional cake house in KL. That is why it is slightly cheaper than in Singapore. & you pay less for more!:)
2) Aloe vera is added into our mooncake for better digestion!
3) Our mooncakes are made with Honey instead of sugar! So, it is suitable for diabetic patient! (i mean, little amount ah!)
4) It is your healthier choice!
5) It is certified HALAL!
6) WON SUPERBRAND AWARD 2010! :D
7) Freshly taken from the factory, thus once you order, you might take a few days to get your mooncakes! :) & while stocks last! so place your orders now ah!!!
8) we are the sole distributor for Singapore & Malaysia, that is why you can get it from me at a cheaper price! :)
9) our mooncakes have special blend formula for healthier choice! Different from the rest!
10) Quality check & Iso approved!

So, WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR??

ORDER FROM ME NOW! ^^
e-mail/MSN: ai-poh@Hotmail.com
Contact No: 93223236

NOW, There is an offer!
I can deliver it to you if you order >10 boxes from me! :)
(provided that you don't live in the far ends or remoted areas! )
If otherwise, we will meet at the MRT station! :)
& I can give you a Cashback of $5 if you order >10 boxes from me!!
PLUS! got FREE vouchers provided by my company! WORTH $550!!

If you get >5 boxes! I can meet you at MRT:)

PS: I meet my friends for free! ( but accomodate abit lah!^^)

What are you waiting for??
ORDER FROM ME NOW! :D

If possible! please help me ask your father, mother, aunty, uncle, grandparents, friends, relatives, neighbours! ETC!! I WILL BE MORE THAN HAPPY! & you can keep the cashback! :)
I know many of my friends have kind parents, dont you??

PLEASE HELP ME~!^^

ORDER FROM ME NOW! ^^
e-mail/MSN: ai-poh@Hotmail.com
Contact No: 93223236 (Call/SMS)

alternatively, you may add me in FB, follow me on twitter, or leave a comment! :) THANKS!

& MY OTHER ADVANTAGE IS CASH ON DELIVERY!! This is for people I know.
For my readers, you might need to pay a deposit amount of 50% first! ^^
But everything is negotiable!

WHILE STOCK LASTS OK?! Please order ASAP to prevent disappointment!!(best by this week!)

Thank you!

order from me noww~~

In a nutshell.

2011-08-20T02:53:00.004+08:00

I guess I have pretty much got use to my life w/o blogging. but I still love blogging! I am twittering way too much & have neglected my blog *gosh*
Thus, I have decided to blog today. & get the blogging passion back! :) I shall stop procrastinating, & no more excuses. ;>

Oh, I do miss blogging. it helps me retain my memories. (ok, this sentence is weird. but I am not in the right state to think straight now. So this blog post gonna be messy! LOL)

I really don't know how to start, so I shall start topic by topic. (for the things I rmb)

EXAMS:

Okay, what a topic to start with, but this is what is on my mind now. -_-
I have 3 papers. (like very little right? but they are all of 50% weightage. fk) & I seem like I have studied nothing. Nothing goes in my mind. or Should I say that other things have occupied my mind that I can't concentrate in studying? or.. maybe it is just me. I always dread studying.
BLAW, CBM, PM. (you don't have to know what this is if you don't know) these are the modules I have to memorise. damn lah. how much can you expect from my pea-sized brain? :<

Everything sucks. I swear I will start tomorrow. Oh well. :< EXAMS SUCKS.

SEVENTH MONTH

Okay, the month of the year is here. maybe it is too late to say this. but.. BE CAREFUL everyone. don't offend them, and they wont offend you. I pray for peace & I hope I will be less suay though!
Seventh month is also a busy month for superstitious family like mine! haha. I shall not name ourselves as superstitious, but this is our religion, so we respect it & truly believe in it.So if you dont, simply kyms:) so, seventh month is all about, the Dos & Don'ts and the things to avoid. & also.. PRAYING! so many venues! dad's workshop, mum's office, old house, house. Sadly, I have no pictures to upload.

& seventh month is also about eating :< time to get fat!

TUITION:

Yeap, I am back to teaching tuition for primary school kids! This student is the toughest ever. :< but I will keep trying! hopefully, I can earn something from this! today! is my 6th lesson. Time flies!

IT FAIR:

Thanks for accompanying me! <3<3 hehe

I will be working for this upcoming IT FAIR (comex). so.. if there are no changes.. I will be selling CASIO camera! Do buy it from me if you can! :D I will appreciate it very much! I think I am very easily recognizable right?, my size, my voice, my face. BUY OKAY?! BUY! then I will be a happy girl! haha! & casio camera will be affordable during this IT fair!

SEE YOU THERE!

THIS HOLIDAY:

nope, I wont be going overseas. :< #sad. (maybe malaysia lah. IDK. LOL) so I will fill my holiday up with work!= $$$ & also meeting up with friends! :D

JOBS (tentative)

so, I will be working for it fair, as stated. &... if everything goes well, I will be working for F1? either selling tickets, or selling those racing products. & then, I think I will be selling mooncake! haha. & of course, I hope HH2011 will hire me! ^^ will be more than happy to participate in this year's Halloween!

D.I.Y pens!( SELLING!)

I am also planning to sell this D.I.Y pen, provided that I can do it nicely.:) the price will be at $12 each.

what's so special? you can personalised this pen! choose the colours you want! & you can input your name/anything!

It will look something like this. but it will definitely be much nicer!

(this is my first/second try!)

Price: $12 (exclusive of postage)

Postage: $1

Pen: Pilot G-1 Grip.

Pen ink: Black, Blue, Green, Red.

Wordings & background colours: Up to your preference:)

* I will find similar colors or substitute will colors close to it (but I will ask you beforehand!)

Personalised it!: 4-8 letters!

Emoticons: Additional $1!

-heartshape

-smiley face

DO SUPPORT ME! :D

DRIVING:

I am currently, still at stage 2 :<. depressing. yeah. sucks very much. I am a slow slow slow learner. but I hope to get my license by this Nov! GOD BLESS ME.

MEET-UPS:

With my seniors, juniors, secondary mates & etc! :D

Must set dates early kays! you see how busy I am! lol!

SINGING:

have been skipping for 2 weeks, & will be skipping for the next 3 weeks. *GUILTY*

FRIENDS:

this is something very sad. many things happen for the past weeks. but I have learnt, learnt to be a better friend. and learnt to adapt. learning to see who are the true friends I can trust.I will not elaborate on this. cause this is sad. and I don't want to cause anymore misunderstandings. but I will still jot this down in this entry, cause I gotta rmb this, for life. :) Oh well, everything is over, all is well now. as long as I look at the brighter side. & learn to be more magnanimous.

NYAA:

something I have challenge myself to take up. will be registering soon. I regret not registering last year cause I have unknowingly fulfilled some of the requirements. #NICEONE.>_<. oh well. I will try again!

New CCAs:

& I will be joining Daiko drums & astronomers next sem! YAY! hope this will be awesome! I wanna meet nice peoples!

SPSEC/Jap students!:

I so wanna blog this awesome experience! I had fun! & I get to meet nice people! thanks hilda for dragging me there with me! a club i joined since year 1 but I have never joined any of their activities! the people there are pretty nice & friendly! & I get to interact with a bunch of japanese students! :D YAY!

Spot me! haha. Haish.. I am missing them! :<

hope they will like the personalised pens I made for them!^^

MORE~!
Pictures taken with hilda's camera!

I wished I had my polariod with me. :S

& I wished I dressed nicer on the farewell dinner :X

Ami!

Shibu-chan & Ayaka.

Kyoko!!

hilda's Polariod

Steamboat session., haha

I think I look damn innocent here can! haha

Kanka!

Ami!

Toru!

I didn;t wear blusher! :X

happy memories like this. :) WILL BE KEPT FOREVER!~

LEG:

for those who are concerned. My leg is healing, all is well. except for the pains I have when I walk too much or knock on it. :<

DRAMA:

I am currently watching.... Love keeps going.. & many other shows!

SAKAE with Lovables mates!

EAT NON STOP.

this is like 10% of what we ordered only!

HAPPY HOR?! :D

HANDPHONE:

havent been able to pick up calls for the past 1 month. just admitted my pinky to the hospital ytd? urgh. major prob. damn it. major prob when I used it less than... 3 months?! haish, this is the time when I thought I should just get iphone that time.

MONEY:

I need money. I want to be rich. who doesn't? right? & I got so many things to pay for :< my insurance. I PAID MYSELF. not my mum, not my dad. so don't assume, don't judge.

President Election:

I realised, I am quite interested in politics one. haha

so, who will you vote? don't tell me. Your votes are secret! haha. but, do vote wisely kays!

MY WISH:

So many! I can't remember all liao! so I will blog again! haha.

Diet Plan =failed!

LOL, i knew this coming. haha. how do I envy eat not fat people! I have many food cravings!

NEW HAIR COLOUR!:

okay, so I got step by step procedure for this. (wanted to post another entry, but forget it! haha)

okay, this gonna be funny. lol.

Pour the right into the left. (confusing, I know.. but nvm! )

then you wonder what is this....so.. the answer is..

TADAA~!! Gloves!

oh, then what is this? instant coffee powder? LOL.. nonono.. is the colour!

to pour into this!

then you shake shake shake shake shake! X 30 times.

& wow! you get this! ( please don't be like some "famous" SG blogger, never shake well then go blame the product, oh, maybe she was just promoting for the other brand.)

I was wondering if it will explode.

but heng ah! it didn't! was amazed with this cream thingy

then you scoop...

then apply! lol. I know you are laughing! stop laughing ah!

Shock. lol

overall rating for this product: 3.5/5

the dye stings my scalp, i guess it is because i have sensitive scalp. but I still prefer the hoyu beauteen. (not in market anymore :X) this is something pretty cool, but not suitable for people who are clumsy. you will make a mess yo! I like the colour and the fact that I get to play with it!

GEMS:

gems is over. I met nice people like tatania & siyuan! haha. i wished I got an A. but I doubt so. haish. this is sad. really can't have good teamwork everytime. but people who asked for my opinions and ideas for NOTHING seriously annoys me. don't waste my precious time like that next time man. & if only your ideas are better than mine, then you have all rights to do the way you wish, If not, just follow the way we planned. -_-. & don't ask me to think of all the ideas when this is suppose to be teamwork!

final product, nice?

YAY!

Jun nan & mei nv yo!

RS INTERVIEW/ PC COUNSELLING:

Over as well. but I think I didn't do as well as I should. :X especially for PC. totally feel like crying. haish. but, it is over. no use crying over spilled milk. stay positive & smiles.

PROJECTS:

all projects over, but I almost died due to projects. that is also the reason why I am not blogging and I had to miss many outings with the japs! I just want to be more responsible:) hehe. hope my report-writing skills can improve!!!

R.I.P cartecious:

friends that followed my twitter should know that I have been feeling down over my bro's friends death. this sudden news really shocked me. I am just trying not to brood over it anymore. Rest.In.Peace. i have been praying for you. hope you will have a smoother path.

UNCLE & COUSIN Birthday.

havent buy present yet, this is bad!:( will get the presents soon.

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE! may you stay: long live! healthy! I love you! <3 hehe

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASSHOLE! may you get richer! & get your license soon! hhehe

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YY!

Hope you enjoyed the mini celebration I have for you! (i travelled out just for you kays! haha!)

hope you like the small-like-ant cake, the no-time-to-buy present and hope you are happy! haha

Happy 19th!

Thanks for this awesome shot! hahaha

OH OH! btw, this is my new haircut. haha

Studying with SuLi-Po

I 'kop' her pictures! son't tell her kayes!

I went J.E library with suli po on wednesday! (17/08) haha! it was fun! SULIPO, I love you kays! hehe! it was a fun ~~studying~~ eating experience! :X lol.. thank god I have hilda, yinyin & other classmates in poly!

okay, shall end things here!

I thought I will have many things to blog about. but.. like nothing leh!

Shall upload some overdued pictures taken with my phone next time!

byebye!

WHAT RIGHTS DO YOU HAVE?

2011-07-22T03:00:00.003+08:00

I am supposed to be sleeping. But. Something just annoys me. :/

I seriously hate people saying that, WAH, you so rich; you spent alot leh; your pocket money alot leh; you blah blah blah, you blah blah blah.

DO NOT JUDGE BY ITS SURFACE. I might not be living that good you think I am. sometimes it is just that I don't show & I don't want to show. (maybe only my close friends will know. OK, Maybe not)

& SERIOUSLY. F-OFF. Are you jealous with my life? oh, then too bad. everything is fated. I am just born lucky. Blessed with good parents that are able to support me, provide shelter for me, giving me 3 meals, leeting me take up courses. You want life like mine? STFU & do more good deeds, maybe you can blessed next life too.

I understand lah. 有些人就是那么心胸狭窄，见不得人好。( Some people is just that narrow-minded & full of jealousy & evil thoughts)

Disclaimer: I am not trying to be action or show-off, but I just wanna make things clear. & I am definitely not teasing those who don't have a complete family or those who lives in poverty.

I might get even more anti-aipoh after this post, but I don't care if you are dumb enough to misinterpret my meanings and kick a fuss out of it.

You curious about the pocket money I have? : Okay, here's your answer: $500 +-.(a month!) Why +-?, it is because sometimes I do not get my pocket money (cause my mom has no money) or I might get extra if I need to buy stuffs. FYI: My father does not give me money since years ago. Until recently where I begged him for it. (my mom asked me to). I know, I understand, I appreciate it. My pocket money is alot as compared to the average students at my age. (usually, they get $250-350). but some students get $1000. (so what?, if you have friends getting $1000 per month, you gonna kill them? ). & proud to say, I plan for my future & I SAVE. I know right, I am a wastrel cause I am still getting pocket money from my parents, But ain't most poly students getting pocket money from their parents?!

I don't work. (maybe only giving tuition, or part time here & there). Not that I don't want to work. Just that I can't afford to work peacefully with such health & grades. & TELL ME NOW, what kind of good jobs can you get with like an uncompleted diploma?! sales? waitress? All these won't benefit much except getting some job experience and meeting more people, exploring the society. -which is good. But who really work for all these? people at my age now, work for the sake of money. not because of their passion and future. & people who works, who actually gives your parents money? I bet only 1% of you does.

PS: not trying to include those that works at my age to support their family.

Yea, Okay. I am looking for a job now. (any part-time to intro?) & might be teaching tuition again. -by giving tuition, I gained back some knowledge & I feel extremely happy when I meet obedient and good students!:)

What right do you have to say that I am spendthrift? stingy? 败家女? born with sliver spoon? & whatever nasty things you can think off. oh, the most ridiculous one is, I can afford to fail my grades, since I have money to repeat my studies, I can afford to buy things without change, I can afford to not work for my whole life & let my parents feed me.

HELL NO.

Let me share some of my plans with you.
Which is to set up business by 23. (like after uni). -TELL ME, how much does this cost?!
Buy my own flat (condo) by 25- Not cheap ok?
Buy my own car(cheap ones will do) by 21 -Crazy COE can spoil my plans.

& I am determined to pay all these myself! not possible to let my parents pay for my things when I am old enough to support them right?

& let me tell you why I am not rich now.
(some of the stuffs I could thought off)

- I paid for my laptop myself. (ya, who paid for the laptop themselves when they enter poly huh??)
-I paid almost all the fees to get my driving license. (reason why I want to get: cause I want to drive my parents, hemama, hepapa around. & I think a license will be of good use in future) (& I think my mom will return me back when she has money!)
-I have to pay $200 for my insurance every month. (I paid for a year already)
-I have to lend my brother money & never gets them back. ($30, $50, $100, $200- I lost counts of them. This is frustrating I tell you!)
-I treat people food & stuffs occasionally
-I always gets sick & I have to visit the doctors cause I have weak immune system. #fml
-I treat myself with good food. (like always!)
-I always buy things to reward myself:) Hiak hiak.
-I always buy without thinking (ya la, I admit this is very waste & spendthrift of me D:)
-I have to buy presents for others b'day presents. (they add up to large amount )
-I love buying cute & useless things
-Yeap, like stationeries, charm, accessories, make-ups, masks & stuffs (whatever you think off, you name it, i have it. :<)
-Oh, & I paid for the Ukimono+ Ukimono mini myself.
-I have to lend my mom money cause she is financially tight. (& that amount is alarming for a student like me:/ Okay lah, maybe not #contradictingmuch.)
-I don't 'Geah gao' (fuss) about money with my loves one. (eg; hemama) cause I am appreciative of that she brought me up:) & I seriously don't mind. Although I admit that I am getting more & more stingy.

TELL ME NOW.
AM I RICH?! Yea, maybe I would be damn rich if I don't spend & spend. (But, hey! I am trying to improve the economy :) you will know what I meant if you studied econs) My bank is like 2-digits only now.

& Why can I afford to pay for all these stuffs when I don't really work?
CAUSE I SAVE. I am stingy. & I often throw my face away, being thick skin & ask my sister for treat! :) (eh! i got treat her also hor!). I don't mind picking up stuffs other don't want. I don't waste. (& I can't bear to throw) I am like a garang guni. LOL.

Not forgetting, I save my own angbao money since I am 10. (yeap, before that.. all my money gone to my mom's) & when I am young, my father dotes on me (only when I am young, WTF). I get money here & then.

& count my blessing.
My mom really loves me. & pays for most of my stuffs. & these stuffs ain't cheap :S
Eg;
- Mind course -$3000++++ (close to $4000!!!) WTF. I took this in P.6, greatest regret of all-_-
-Japanese course -$500++ (& I forget everythg-_-)
-Singing course- $1998. (the one I thought for very long, wanted to pay myself.. but yeah..)
-Shopping! :D - $50-$200 or more everytime! ( I seldom shop lah, but when I do, I go carzy! :/)
-My medical fee -like alot :< cause I get sick always & I need to go for checkup everytime :(
-& many many more.

Okay lah, Maybe I am really rich, since I can afford all these. BUT what rights do you have to say things about me? I spent my own money what ( Money I save from my pocket money) . I did not steal or rob what. although I admit my pocket money comes from my mother lah!

PS:It is not cheap to raise a child, especially if your child is someone like me. :X. or even worse, someone like my brother.(shall not elaborate much on this). I swear I already cut down on my expenses already. but I still spend alot lah. I pity my mummy cause she really has major financial difficulties. (yes, sums that are considered huge) I am appreciative to have a mummy like this! :D Thank you mummy.:)

& ya, so to conclude this post.
I am just a blessed child. I don't have to worry about my financial problem (maybe I do :X). & I make plans for my future.

BUT, I AM NO WHERE NEAR TO RICH. -_-. Neither can I spent without thinking or spend money like tap water!
tell me about it ok?

people can buy condo for their daughter for her 18th birthday.
people can change car every now & then.
people can auction a Pineapple for $60K, a "Huat kueh" for $70K, a banner for $139K. just what is my saving to them

If I am rich, I can buy whatever I want without thinking thinking thinking & procrastinating until everyone finds me irritating and annoying. If I am rich, I will do many many things already. If I am rich, I will already ensure that all my love ones has no financial problems already! If I am rich, I don't have to worry about so many things already! I shall not say much about my financial problems or life I had. (since I am doing okay as compared to the poor now)

but again, I have to ask. AM I RICH? NO, fucking NO. So, stop saying things about me being rich or whatsoever. It is freaking annoying. I SWEAR.

If you classify me as rich. then like 30% of the singaporeans will be considered rich. 20% will be considered very rich.10% will be considered SUPER rich. 5% of more uses $100 to wipe their ass. (just saying) then like 30% will be ok ok.(how poor can you be in singapore with all the financial aid. Go read about poverty in africa ok?) 5% will be very poor. (maybe like 1 meal a day only or what lor)

SO, in conclusion. STOP SAYING THAT I AM RICH, STOP SAYING NONSENSE W/O KNOWING. unless you're a frog in the well or really just kidding, I wont forgive you. & I will ensure you keep your mouth shut & pay for your own actions. Of course, For such things, I will usually ignore or don't-give-fuck unless it is getting really overboard. & you just don't know how irritating and annoying it is! commenting on someone just shows how jealous you are of that particular person. (unless the person really deserves the comment lah, be it positive or negative)

YOU JUST DON'T KNOW THE STORY BEHIND EVERYONE. What you see is just the surface. If you don't know, don't assume & act like you know. It only makes you looks dumber & sometimes, detestable.

So, either you keep your mouth shut, or keep your comments to yourself. Stop being so bossy & ignorant. & earn your keeps. Good luck to you in being "rich". Maybe if you 少关一点闲事, (stop poking your nose into everything) & use the time to think of how to generate wealth, YOU WILL BE RICH. (i mean, really rich). Not dreaming about being rich ok? is thinking & making actions.

loves;
aipoh

PS: 3 am in the morning & I am also having stomachache. That is how bad my health is. my arms hurts cause of the bloodtest I had this morning & afternoon :<.I can't really sleep also cause I sleep in the evening & my stomach really hurts. :<

Bad signs.

2011-07-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

Recently, I have been having weird and bad dreams.

I am afraid. I gotta a feeling that I wont survive long in this world anymore.
Or someone dearly to me is gonna leave me.

How.

What should I do.?

I seriously dunno what is wrong.

But I just feel terrible. from time to time.

I even woke up to a wet pillow. I thought I was drooling, but I wasn't. My eyes were puffy. there were trails of dried up tears.

I sense that god is telling me something, but I have no idea what is it.

Maybe I am just worrying about the unforeseen, unpredicted, or unhappenings.
but it just feels real.

I couldn't stop thinking, I couldn't stop worrying.

& there is no one to share such things to.

I am starting to miss everyone.
I am beginning to worry about those that hate me cause they have misunderstood me.
I don't want to leave with such regrets.
I starts to treasure everyone.
& I feel that there is a need/must for me to be there for everyone.
To the extend, to give up my life for them.

Life like this is stressful. but I can't show, I can't tell, I can't do anything.

Please, god, bless me please.
bless everyone around me.
bless that there would be no natural disasters.
bless that everyone will be healthy and happy.

I have been mentioning how much I love money, how important money is to me.
but, I have not neglected those that money can't buy.

What is money when you can't even find the meaning of life. right?

Of course I would like to be good & be rich. but I shall not be so greedy.
as long as I have roof over head, 3 simple meal a day, my love ones with me, I would rather not be rich.
I just wish for everyone to be healthy, happy and safe.

Spare me.Spare the innocents.

So long since I blog.

2011-07-16T22:01:00.000+08:00

reason being: I have got no time >_
Just in case, anyone misses my face! haha!

WARNING: Do not see this after your meals. :)

This one so cute right! LOL.
I was stuffing sweets into my mouth!

Alrights! Byebye! shall update again soon!

Sinner

2011-07-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

I am not a good friend.
That is why I have no friends. & no one actually will be there for me.

I am not a filial daughter.
That is why even my father doesn't care for me.

I am a bad student.
I don't pay attention in class, I dont do my work, & I only study at the last min.
that is why, my results shows everything.

I am damn irresponsible.
That's why no one wants to work with me.

I am a lousy listener.
that is why I don't have a ear to pour my sorrows to.

I am too noisy.
so irritating that I get stares everytime.

I am a bad decision-maker.
That is why I always have regrets.

I don't trust people easily.
That is why, people don't trust me too.

I show the f-care attitude (even though it really bothers me)
& that is why people misunderstands and malign me.

I am always sick & injuring myself.
& I missed out great opportunities.

I am a bad girl.
No one likes me.
Even I hate myself.

I am very stubborn.
I force myself not to cry. but my tears just flows down.

I hate life like this.
I don't even know why I started.
Life were so much simpler in the past.
& my brain just can't adapt to the firstworldcountry I am in now.
Everyone around me looks fake.

I am tired of living. & I find no point to continue what I am doing now.
I will die eventually right?

I swear I wanna cry so damn badly.

SWAY.

2011-07-06T21:24:00.001+08:00

Life hasn't been great. & I officially declare that July is definitely not a month for me. _|_!
This makes of term 2 life sucks even more!

Disclaimer: lots of vulgarities, please do not continue reading on if you dont wish to. & please do not judge me because of this post.

On the first day of school, my water bottle spilled., my bag was wet. but it wasn't that bad still, cause my things aren't that wet.
On the second, I PON SCHOOL. #sobad
& on the third day, My water spill inside my new bag again! WA LAO!

& then, my gems class was combined. & thus, there were no seats! -_-. Had to bring the chair from other class. & guess what?! PRESENTATION NEXT WEEK! HUH!?! WTF!? -_-. To be honest, I only attended my gems thrice. 1st lesson, I was watching videos for that full 1 hours ++, 2nd lesson, I had presentation, 3rd lesson, watch videos again. -__-. & I had to present next week. HAISH.

That is not the end, I went to the toilet. I godknowswhy. I went to pull my shorts thinking that there is zip. So, in the end, my shorts got no zip.. BUT. I went to pull the loose thread. causing my new shorts to have a pocket that can probably fit in a puppy. and that hole is damn big. I was like hoping & praying that, no one will see my underwear. #paisehmax.

Then I went for my driving practical. I booked them yesterday, so I suppose it is a cancel slot.
& I met a fking instructor. Seriously dont like me! I would prefer my previous one though. Let me tell you why!

1) when I enter the car, He spend like ard 10 mins telling me, why I shouldn't book a canceled slot, cause the system mess la, what I cannot get same car lah... etc etc.. blah blah blah. I should book my slots, etc etc..... I should not book cancelled slots.. etc etc.

My mood still wasn't that bad at that moment, so i was still smilling.

Then...

2) we started moving off, & he drove like more than 5 rounds telling me about the engine brake, etc etc. (which was not so impt-_-). then he hinted that I am stupid cause he repeatedly many times already. NABEH, my memory wasn't that bad. He told me contradicting stuffs. thus, I asked him a question. I explained to him. (more like a friendly argue) then he realised that he told me the wrong thing in the first place. then!

3) he park, & took out that book, & told me. (like as if, I dk how to read uh) & he told me reading of the book is redundant, theory more impt. (okay, this I agree). BUT THEN, he started telling me, If I don't know these simple theory from the book, How to pass my FTT. (something like that)

4) He freaking speaks in a CHINA ACCENT. Damn it! (I am not stereotyping but read on, much more irritating stuffs!)

5) when it is my turn to drive, he was yawning and wasn't concentrating. I made the moves myself. & then He praise me, & say that I was learning pretty fast. as compared to the car infront, I am much better. etc etc. & I am quite a fast learner. & THEN, he starts being damn irritating again.

6) He asked me about my age, my chinese name, my school, what I studying, my parents job, Blah blah blah. those personal questions you wont answer. (for goodness sake, I met him less than an hour?!). & he freaking ask me to listen to him for instructions. (how to tolerate, you tell me!)

7) he make me go through things I learnt during the second practical. (F, can't he check my status or what?!) cause, my previous instructor actually told me, I learn very fast, hence during the first lesson, I am already learning what others learnt for the second lesson, and during my second lesson, I am already going to move into stage 2. & my next lesson (which is today) , I will probably spend my time learning turning & I can go off to the road already! (no more circuit). But WTF, I continued driving ard the circuit. & learned turning ONLY. (so, tell me now.. is he wasting my time?!) If only he dont waste my precious time & stop asking me stupid questions! I am already on the fast pace lor, & he had to slow down my learning pace like that! *SCREW HIM*

Then!
8) He started persuading me to take auto, instead of manual. say my legs don't need so tired. they can teach easier. & what, if I take auto, I will be off to the road by my third lesson already (HELLO?! I am suppose to go off road ALREADY! if only, you didn't waste my time talking to me nonsense & making me learn what I have learnt AGAIN!) Nabeh! I just ignored. & Say I like it the tough & hard way. & he was so amazed by my answer. & continue yakking, how '女强人' I am.. etc etc. ( all sorts of nonsense irrelevant to driving) & he ask me what I want to do in future. (OMG< I hope he can mind his own business & do his job well!) If I am not so irritated by his actions & the way he speaks. I might have replied all his questions nicely & smile to him.

Of course la, I start to like a bit piss off. & I am like not smiling already. -_-. except for those awkward smiles when I make mistakes... & just like, smile smile & try to ignore la.

9) A car infront of me suddenly brakes at the sharp bend, of course I no time to react. then my car will '死车' (off engine) right?! THEN, he can say, haiyo.. you like that.. how to go main road. like that cannot go main road la. #excuses. but nvm, I accept it, that I am lousy.. so I spent my time on braking, turning & Driving around the circuit. & he nags about my braking. (which in the end he told me, already very good for 3rd lesson-_-)

10) then! he starts asking me, when is my next slot. etc etc etc. & told me, HOPE TO SEE YOU AGAIN SOON. (nabeh, he cannot see I don't want to see him). I totally gave no reactions when he said that. & he continue asking me why never book more slots. should just book and block all the slots. so I wont have to be afraid of no time-slot. I straight away look at him ans say. "因为我没有钱" (cause I no money). & he quickly ask me look at main road.

11) Finally, Park back liao. Lesson ending liao. BUT I CAN'T GET OFF THE CAR. he told me to wait. & he spend rest of the time, talking to me about theory. & asking me questions. #nopeace. & he end with, SEE YOU AGAIN SOON (omfg, he dont have to repeat himself) URGHHHHHHH.

So, tell me now. HOW TO TOLERATE?!

I am not having time of the month. But is just that, my whole day not in good mood already, & got this uncle keeps on harrassing me about personal questions instead of teaching me driving. Make me repeat things I have learnt, (cause he assumes that I am the same pace with the majority). I wouldn't be so angry if these practical lessons aren't that expensive., But it freaking cost $60-$70. why do he have to waste my money like that!? #saddieme. damn heartache leh! (i know lah, no money shouldn't go take license, but I want to drive my parents, hemama, hepapa aunties, uncles around what! what's wrong?!)

& then right, I am so angry...
I took the train wrongly. On the opposite side. & I only realised it when I reached YEWTEE. #damnit.
Already not in a very good mood. & all this shit has to happen. TMD.

& so, I reached home.. finally not so angry after tweeting & blogging.

BUT my damn niece had to choose this timing, to bang my door non-stop, stomp her foot outside my room, kicking my door, screaming loudly. LOOKING FOR HER MOTHER. I am in the mist of blogging & I already told her nicely, her mummy is not in my room. & she continue to yell and scream non stop! kicking my door, stomping her feet. Nabeh. She had to make me scream. & now, only her grandmother (my mother) will entertain her & pacify her. & force me to open the door for her. #damnpissed. She is just so stubborn and annoying! urghhh... (i hope her sister wont be like her). can you imagine yourself, already not in a good mood, doing something & a 4 years old had to ruin your mood even further? making your anger level go up?! I hope I wont have high-blood pressure. Urghhh.. talk to her nicely, wont listen. must make me scold her, then she go round & complain to her '靠山'. AHHHHH, ANNOYING DAY!

DAMN SWAY, SWAY MAX MAX!

URGHHHH.

No Money, No license.

2011-07-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

Sad die me.

I can't book for my BBDC practical lessons because my bank account got no money! (forget to top-up!)
IDK why BBDC can't pay via credit card/ immediate i-banking. Or they should allow their students to top up at any AXS machine or what right?
Okay, so my sister help me transfer $200 into my account ytd, but it was too late. :< My slots were taken. haish!
& the amount was only credited to my account today!

I wish that people will cancel their practical lessons in july! then I got like chance to book! If not I have to wait till August! haish, my sis told me it was easier to book in the past! & there aint so many rules and regulation! :< Why so generation so terak want ah?

1) Book BTT need wait 1-2 months.
2) Book FTT also 1-2 months.
3)Must pass evaluation 10 days before BTT/FTT
3) Fix group. Add $3+, $5+ or $10.
4)Fix instructor, additional $5+?!
5) Everything need to wait. & everything need MONEY.

Conclusion: In singapore, you can't get what you want with money. but, you can't do things without money. 钱不是万能，但没钱是万万不能！

#SADDIEME. why singapore so stress one ah? Maybe it is like that whole wide world. but ESPECIALLY in Singapore.

Let me share abit about my driving . (not blogging in full, but will blog in full when I get my license!:D)
PS: regrets, Didn't take photos of anything. But will take my statement record & stuffs next time! :)

Initially, I wanted to enroll on a certain in march after my birthday. But I forgot to bring my IC. *laughs*

Reminder: to all planning to get a license. Please bring your IC with you! & not forgetting, MONEY!

& thus, I enrolled during.18th march. (the same day as my cousin, but we went at diff time & didn't saw each other! amazing not?)

Then uh, I paid...
$89.88 for my enrolment fee.

Reminder: once you enroll, book for your BTT.

I stupidly enrolled myself, & went home! on the 23/3. I book my BTT for 18/5. (ya, that is how long you have to wait!). Luckily I went for my BT lessons, 1.01 & 1.02 on 23/3. and the instructor reminded us to book. If not, I am like a headless fly. I don't know anything. I even enrolled for many lessons wrongly & I had to cancel it. #stabsmyself.

Okay, lalala~ had my lessons right?
So I had to go for my evaluation... I wanted to book when it is nearer to my BTT.

BUT THEN. I had to fall down & break my leg on the aprils fool.

SO, I can't go for my BTT right? I cancelled on the 2/5. & re-book another one on the 23/6. SEE , I have to wait again!!! I wanted to struggle my way there, since on 18/5, I should be like, can limp abit abit liao hor... But... I had to take my evaluation 10 days before! life would be better if BBDC had lifts/ escalator. but they had none. I can't possibly climb to the third floor with my limping/unhealed leg. so I had to cancel them!

Reminder: No refunds will be given if you cancel your BTT. rmb that, ok? & when you fail, you re-book & wait again!

So.. blah blah blah..
Since june is Holidays! I so diligently went for practice & evaluation. On the 7/6 & 8/8!

Oh, wait. I failed my evaluation for the first time & got 69/70 for the second time! How can right?! I wasn't taking things seriously. (my bad). the china woman besides me contributed to part of my failure too. guess what? I got 62/70, fail my 1 mark! seriously. -_-. i should have read through carefully! Waste money again!

& then... on the 23/6!
I gave up my Hatyai trip with my family & celebrations for my sis b'day! & I went to BBDC myself!
I had to take my BTT, no choice! & exams were nearing!
I was praying that I don't fail, if not.. I will be damn sad lah!
& thank god! I passed! 49/50! LOL
I applied for my PDL!
It looks more meaningful with my sis's bday on it! memoriable hor?

Reminder: Remember to prepare $25 for your PDL when you're taking your BTT!

& then, I went to take enroll for my practical lessons! & FTT (during 23/6)
My first practical was on! 1/7!
& FTT on 5/8!

Reminder: If your financial status supports you, you may want to book 25 practical lesson once you get your PDL. #playsafe.
so I went for my first practical right? (i was late my 5 mins!)
My area is J, car number: 40!
car plate was... SXX4048X (couldn't rmb lah)
My progress was quite fast! hehe, cause I skipped many theory to be gone through! cause I know how to change Tyre! check engine & stuffs liao! sucha bio-tronic woman! haha!* I know I very man!* No lah, I was 'force' or or I should say, willingly learned them from my dad since young, like 7/8?

Okay, back to first lesson! I was really jittery! and damn kanjiong! it was still ok! except I find that the instructor is abit like... Nervous, weird, & funny. I think he find my annoying la. cause I was blabbering all the way. & he looks at me in a weird way! afterall, he wasn't that bad lah! anyway, besides those theory thingy, I learned, stopping, reversing, changing gear! & driving around the circuit!

Then after lesson! I happily book for another practical! & I so heng! got slot on the 2/7! :) (but I have to pay like $10 more cause it is a saturday!) & book for my FTL 1.01 & 1.02 & FTE!

Then I went for the second practical! & met natalie! :)
GUESS WHAT AGAIN? I got back the same area, 40J, & the same car, 4048! ( bought like 4d, but nv strike -_-). & I got the same instructor! I was praying that I wont get the same instructor cause I swear he look at me weirdly & I think he BTH my noisiness! Okay, resigned to my fate. & he actually told me chances of getting the same instructor for consecutive lessons is very very rare!!! cause the system dunno, blah blah blah. Let's see if it's still him for my third lesson. :S

I learnt driving around the circuit and breaking distances & stuffs!

Looking forward to my next practical!! :)

Reminder: You may keep a lookout at BBDC website, for cancelled slot! :) (I shouldn't share this tips right! then lesser ppl know, then I got more chance! haha. but I am still sharing!)

PS: again, I hope ppl will cancel their lesson! so I can book them!:) & hopefully, those cancelled slots matches my time!

I want to pass by October! (taking that I actually enrolled myself in june!, I want to pass within 4 months! like my sis! hehe!) but if I sway sway fail, then no choice lor! :<

Okay, that is all! will blog a thorough one again! I bet it will be a super long post then!

MST OVER, but no holidays!

2011-07-03T22:39:00.001+08:00

Hello people,

how is everyone getting on? Me= dying in the mist of projects.
I am still researching for my CBM & thought that I shall give myself a break by blogging! :)

I have actually created 2 more blogs.
1 for my dietary process.
http://say-bye-to-fats.blogspot.com/
sad to say, this blog will only be for invited readers! ( do tell me if you wish to be invited:))

1 for my singing/performing!
http://ignitethepassioninme.blogspot.com/
Hehe, this is for everyone but I have yet to put everything nicely in place.

So, I currently have 23 blogs. ( exaggerating much, I know)
this is only for blogs I have with Blogger.
Let me just explain why,
I use blogger since I am like 10/11. YA! I started damn early.
then on and off, I quitted blogging. & I didn't want to delete the history. so I kept them as private for renaissance or feed mosquitoes. (haha, but they didn't get bitten anyway!)
So, I have like many blogs already lor!
not forgetting that I actually have private blogs. whereby I got lazy. & just leave it to rot. & again, I didn't want to delete them.
& then, I got the blogshops. (the 'In' thing when I am in secondary!)
some individual one, some shared ones. I am actually earning money lor! but then I got lazy! haha.

Okay, this is the reason why.
But I am proud of my MAIN BLOG now! (dont think I am gonna chg it,unless I changes my name. which is fairly impossible! but, maybe I will buy my own domain only)
Ai-poh.blogspot.com
don't know if anyone enjoys reading it, but I enjoy blogging in this little space of mine.
Hehe, proud to say, I get 50-200+ readers a day:)! *winks* not really alot, but alot!
Do continue to support kays! :D
although i know I dont blog with good english, pretty photoshop pictures or fantastic storylines. But I am just blogging "Myself." being me!(selling myself in a kind of way!)

I promise to revamp my whole,entire blog by the end of this year.. so things dont look so messy!
Will provide a tab for my dietary blog, & singing blog, & most probably blogs about me.! (not my private blogs for sure!)
Maybe, when I start to get married, I will set up another blog. then when I have baby, another blog again! haha. Just saying la! no plans to get married anyway! but I hope blogger don't close down :<

PS:Can someone tell me if I can create multiple tabs on my blog. so I can like post everything in one blog. but like different things? (don't know if you und what I am trying to say)

& then, now..
I am considering... if I should set up a blog for my driving records? I think I should la! but definitely not today! :) will be blogging to share what I have learnt, so that people taking 3c license can know some info? haha. don;t be a sotong like me. I know I very nice right. LOL. or should I just write a long long entry after I have passed?

Wah, come to think... Should I create a blog for my braces records. (not much to type, but pictures to share!)
Haha, this is definitely not for now. maybe in my holidays. when I consolidated the pictures. (damn brother just formatted my comp, without my permission & got all my pictures deleted. I feel like chopping him, seriously)
This is just in plan only. but since I took it off already. I think I wont be creating another blog for it. but... a long long entry about it! :)

PLEASE, Please remind me to consolidate my pictures (all from the digital camera) by this coming september holiday! burn them into disc/hard disk! & save them safely! I dont want my pictures to go missing anymore! Cause I am so afraid that my phone will somehow spoil again. forcing me to format them w/o saving my pictures. My laptop will die on me. my brother will steal my desktop/laptop & format it again. My phone/.laptop will go mising. :<... so.. I actually have pictures from a few places:
-several discs
-my handphoness (tough job)
-my pink desktop (which my brother stole away)
-My old desktop.
-my pink mini laptop
-My current pink laptop.
-my FB.

&, sobs. I am actually looking for the pictures and stuffs, where I have performed in the past :< It is missing now!! SAD DIE ME.

& also, pictures I have took when I go overseas!! ( haish!)

&, pictures I have took of my teeth (for my braces post).. although I lost all the pictures cause my phone was in my full of water, waterproof bag. thanks to my untighten water bottle. (that was in sec 2/3)

Friends, If you read this. & you have pictures of me/group pictures. Please kindly send it to my e-mail. TYVM!!!
So, I conclude that.. this so tough & challenging job will take me.. like..
3-7 days.!! God bless me! I MUST START this task soon, so that it wont turn more and more complicated!
Maybe I will just save them all in a folder & not group them properly bah! >_<
Please kindly remind me. (sept holidays!)

Ps: I am not being zi-lian, or desperate for pictures. But I believe that a picture paints a thousand words. & pictures keep good memories! only pictures wont change nor dissapear. where the people, place will change. so... conclusion. It is better to keep pictures... right?!

Back to life.
Life has been good. MST is over. (screwed up 4.5/5 papers -_-) & there is NO holidays this time round. DAMN YOU, SP. I am like doing projects and research this few days. till my eyes gonna cross. too much computer is not good! not healthy for the eyes! especially when it comes to reading a whole chunk of words, & you gotta understand it, extract the main points and write it on your own. even though the report is not done by me, (cause my english no good la.) I still gonna do my best for the research so my teammates can do her job easier!

& then, actually I wanna blog about happenings these few days, but. NAH. I realised it is 10.30 now. so I guess I will go back to my research & stuffs. Will blog tomorrow!!!

byebye!

2011-06-27T20:44:00.006+08:00

99%的人类会不开心是因为他们太钻牛角尖，不懂得张开心胸，不懂得知足长乐，也不懂得人间疾苦。

I must learn what I don't know as mentioned above.

Although I have to agree that life is damn fked up at times. It is really damn unfair. Some people are born smart, some pretty/handsome, some rich. & some are just close to perfect. While the rest are vice versa. What we could do to feel better is to compare ourselves to those whom loses out to us. *evil*. Everyone has their own strengths. It is only if you have found yours.

I always complain about my life. (it is okay to complain occasionally but NOT always) even though I know there are much more people suffering out there.
I compare myself to those "look-like-flawless" people in life. I am really envious of them..Comparison hurts.

Why they so skinny & pretty? Why ain't I?
Why don't they have to study & can get good grades? Why can't I?
Why is he/she born so rich & dont have to worry about life.? Why am I not?
Why do they have such a loving and heartwarming family? Why don't I?
Why others have such backing friends & I have close-to-none? >:
ETC, ETC,ETC

I wonder if I did anything bad in my past life, & I am having karma now. I wonder if I am not good enough. I wonder where I did wrong. :<
All these 'why' are the factor are the causes to my unhappiness. sometimes, it is making me crazy. I just can't help it to compare. And feel inferior, sad, annoyed, angry, unsatisfied, mixed feelings that I couldn't explain. but I gotta understand that, everyone has their own flaw, everyone has their own problems, everyone has to go through thick & thin in life. No one is perfect. I am not saying that I should pick out the bad points of the others and ignore the good points of them, but I just gonna stay neutralized. Maybe I should say, Magnify the good & minimized the bad? & feel happy for them? I just gotta look at the bright side of life. (something I am still learning)

& I must learn to be more responsible. No matter how much I hate to shoulder responsibilities. I must start doing so. Or I should say, I am afraid of bearing responsibilities cause things might go wrong? Or sometimes, I become so irresponsible cause of my forgetfulness. Any remedy to that anot?

I guess, The change begins with 'Me'.
Not changing literally but learning, learning from mistakes, learning to be a better person, learning how to be real happy.
Take things to stride. & I should stop thinking that the world is gonna fall. 就算天塌下来，也要当被改。T.H.I.N.K P.O.S.I.T.I.V.E!!!

Oh well, I really need to take charge of my own life already. I am not that young anymore :< SADDENING FACT!

Back to school!
first paper of this year was.... -_-. I forget the name but I remember the descriptions. Holy shit. Please let me pass this paper!

Had a great talk with yinyin! at least, I understand my flaws more! like I say, I rather you point out my mistakes, talk FTF about my problems. Than to bitch behind my back.

Glenys & Jam & hilda planning a overseas trip! don't know if I am able to go though :X!

To end,
Good luck to all having MST!
PS: FB a/c deactivated. please contact me through my number or twitter. Thanks.

SHORT HAIR CUT.

2011-06-24T00:23:00.000+08:00

My hair went from like this....

You can't see the length, but I still wanna show this pict. cause my pretty teeth.
I took off my braces le! did i tell you?

anyway. back to my hair...

it turns to like....

like....

this...

...

YAY! See, cock face makes my face looks slimmer! hahah

then i like not satisfied...

then it went...

like...

this..

...

ZOMG.

How do you think I looked?

which is nicer?
Please leave your friendly comments. LOL.

PS: will only post about my BKK trip after my cousin Soh beezy sent me the pictures.
BOOHOO.

Maybe can post about my malaysia trip first. ^^

Bye for now!
I slack for the whole day today. so I should start mugging tmr! :D
Oh! & I passed my BTT today! :D

BYEBYE

2011-06-22T23:22:00.001+08:00

Life is so fragile. I will learn to take things to stride, Give in my best for all. embrace everyday with smile & keep life going, for as long as I am still breathing.

No title, a title.

2011-06-10T23:54:00.003+08:00

I hate it, when I am being left out by people whom meant something to me.

I thought I meant something to them too, I was so wrong. :X

It really sucks when you know your clique of you-thought-your good friends simply go out without you.
How awful will you feel?
I think I gotta stop being foolish & think things my way, It's always not the case.
I end up getting nothing but disappointment. How great. I guess I was expecting too much.

Real & true friends stay & care for you no matter what. There is no need to care for friends that doesn't give a fuck. (I must get this fact into my mind).
Don't come f-king find me only when you need me. & I am not obliged to help you and be there for people like you guys 24/7.
Please don't blame me for my silence, cruelty, or whatever you say.
How you treat me will be how I treat you in multiples.
You treat me good, I treat you even better.
You treat me bad, I will just ignore you/erase you out of my life. Or give you hell. (if you continues to barge into my life)

Another thing, I have to say. How much I hate people who badmouth behind your so called 'goodfriend'. & I am always your listener. I am not saying that I don't want to be your listener, proud to say, I am a good listener. But I seriously don't know how to react, when you are bad-mouthing. & at the same time. VERY GOOD with that person. I don't know what to say or do, & I am disgusted by your actions. Yes, I admit that... friends do squabble and they will find someone (me) to talk to. But, WTF. one moment you are cursing and swearing this person A, saying how bad how bad she is. (& to the point that you force me to agree with you) & yet, You are so close to her. AT THE SAME TIME. not like, a few days or what. I don't know if I have weird thinking or mindset. cause it seems like, such things are very common now. so, so I have to do such things to adapt to my life now? to adapt in the society?

No wonder I am not progressing so far. -_-. No wonder I am not adapting well.

It's to this point that I feel that I really have none/limited friends.
Tell me, when you look through your phone-book. who can you call when you're bored? or when you need someone to talk to? I am always turning to that few (I pity them), & sometimes when they replies late or never reply. You just feel so empty. & you feel that you are so pathetic that you have no friends. I only got my blog whom I can talk anything and everything to. It's not that I can't live w/o friends. & I feel it's better to live alone that to stay with friends that you gave 100% to them, but end up getting (maybe)1% from them. but I really dread hate growing up, I realized.. I am not that sociable and friendly anymore. I hate making friends, cause I am afraid that I will make wrong friends that will hurt me. I am scare that I am being taking advantage of since I am so stupid. Friends are not like in the past, whereby you quarrel over a toy and patch back the next moment.

When you grow older, your mindset complicates, what you do might not be what you think. That's why, when you grow up, you realise.. the rate of hyprocrites, backstabber, liars, baddies around you increases as well. This is life. accept it & move on.

What are friends? can someone define 'friend' for me?
I don't have friends, I don't trust any of my friends. People whom I trust are my family (okay, maybe not). & friends that I want them to be in my life are my family.

I guess it's time for me to venture and explore around.
I need to get to know the world more. & stop being a frog in the well. I need to grow. (not in my size)
Anyway, I have many other things that I should prioritize now. why am I even bothering about all these miscellaneous in my life?

When the world gives you shit, fertilized your life with it.

A green day like this.

2011-06-10T12:18:00.000+08:00

A day in the office like this.

2011-06-09T00:56:00.001+08:00

This one damn creepy.

I THINK MY SIS GONNA KILL ME & CHOP ME INTO PIECES IF SHE SEES ALL THESE.

PS: don't tell her kays! :D

& pardon me for my Cui TTM + round& fat face.
reason being: I havent been sleeping for more than 4 hours for the past few days.. Gotta rush projects, go to bbdc, then of course, go out with my friends! No time okay!
I am going overseas and I want to complete as much as possible for my projects lor. if not, so unfair to my teammates. :<
& for my driving. sucks la. i failed my first attempt for evaluation by 1 question. i got 62/70. sucks anot? I swear I was very disturbed by the china lady beside me. "whispering" out her questions in CHINESE out loud. literally poking the screen with her nails, making the 'tok,tok,tok' sound. then telling me how great she is when she left.
haiya, I shouldn't blame others lah. cause I didn't really study (besides flipping through the book ytd night.) & I was over-confident. Grrrr. oh well! I got 69/70 for my second attempt. No china woman besides me this time round! :D
& my fat round face is because, I think i gained weight again.always like that before exam de lor. & I have been eating and munching non-stop. in addition to it, I can't move about like I do before. :< Stop laughing at me. I think I wanna go on diet liao. THINK, THINK ONLY. imagine me like so skinny, woah, those suitors confirm queue from jurong to changi! :D

I must stop eating lah. everyday eat out. sooner or later will bankrupt sial! My money will turn to fats. :< Seriously leh, This whole week, I everyday go eat those set lunch, set meal. then munch on snack, SWEETS. FML lah. & I treated my sis today, total bill amounted to $52.97, WOAH.

Okay, Back to my researchhhhhhh.
I swear my face look like a walking zombie now lah.,

BYE!

If only.

2011-06-06T17:04:00.002+08:00

I was talking with my sis about studying/venturing abroad. I wanted to do so LONG AGO. ( like after my O's or something)

If only, 2 years ago, I insisted and I am persistent enough. I would have became a SM.ent trainee already. (I passed their audition, mind you) & also, Eden music... which asked me for a second interview.

But, Nooo.. I am still living in Singapore. & making no progress. :< Regret? Yes. VERY. I hate myself for being soft-hearted. I can't bare to leave Singapore , the people and the things here. I don't want my mother to worry for me & get angry because of this issue.

To be honest, I am a wimp. I am afraid of everything. & I am a mummy/mama-girl. Although I act like I dont care, but I still listens to them. & thus, I gave up many many opportunities. (WHAT THE F).

Oh, & I actually got in for the 'Don't forget the lyrics' competition held by channel 8. (yea lah, they actually interviewed me & it was broad casted. like paiseh only) But, I was having my O's that year. Thus, I gave that opportunity up again.

I shouldn't have held back what I really want to do. I shouldn't have give up on things so easily. I shouldn't let my emotion and feelings take over my wants in life. I should have make good use of what god has given me.

I almost want to transfer out of my poly. & yet again, I want to save those hassles and didn't want to trouble my mum and made her worried. (she has her own burdens). & I simply know nuts about what are the procedures of transferring & stuffs. even when I checked things out, I hesitated. I know I am old enough to decide things for myself. But you ought to know the implications of every choice you made, & how everyone around you would have felt.

& now, I am stuck in this shitty place. Whereby, I almost had no peace everyday. & I have to go to a school I dont really enjoy going, with shitty grades. (I swear I have NEVER scored so badly in my life, NO.NEVER). I have not achieve anything I considered successful in my life. & I totally screw my young-adulthood life. Yes, Totally screwed. I didn't fulfill my promises I made for myself. I am making no progress in life. Sucks max.

Yeah, If only, if only. If only I know I would be like this (what I am now). I would have been persistent. & I would have worked harder. I will let myself control my own life. IF ONLY. It is too late now to regret anyway. but I really don't wish to carry on my mundane life like that. Who would want to waste away their youth? who would want led their life as planned by others?

Blame myself for my stupidity, for my hesitant, for my soft-heartedness, for my in-determinedness, for my thinkings, for my everything

I am regretting now.
I am missing out way too much.
I have given up too many (golden) opportunities.
I don't know how to appreciate my own talents. & literally wasted it.
I have wasted 18 years of my life. (okay, maybe not. 15 years it shall be)
Talk is cheap.I am very cheap. I just mention things with no actions is done.
I am not determined enough, I give things up easily.

If I were to write my regrets, I would have simply filled up a book that is maybe 10000 pages long.

If only I knew I am the 'me' I am today. I would have be a different 'me'. - aipoh

The above quote is made by your truly. & I demand the full copyrights of it.
At least I end this blogpost with an awesome quote. Right?
So I am like quite useful? am I?

---------------------------edited. 11.11 PM-------------------------
& to add on. I didn't perform for my kindergarten graduation night. I remembered it clearly. Cause I was so disappointed & sad when everyone around me starts to talk about their graduation in my lower primary. I WAS CHOSEN AS THE MAIN DANCER. yeah, WTF. i gave it up because I had to go for my 'hanyu pinyin' class then. Yea, everyone had their childhood picture taken. :X & first time performing. I had none :<. I vaguely remembered that I didn't even went for the graduation. god knows why. I don't even have a picture for my graduation day. What I had is the ugly picture I took where i wore that 'squarish hat'. I look freaking -_- there. why didn't they tie my hair or whatsoever? I totally look like a auntie. A ugly one. FFFML. Okay, let me just go draw circles at one corner & EMO about this matter. I can't possibly go back to the past anymore. neither do I have the chance to perform as the main lead for my graduation night anymore. Yea. FML. kids nowadays are so blessed..

& talking about pictures. My fucking, retarded, moron, idiot, parasite brother simply STOLE my desktop away. & REFORMATTED IT. CB, I fucking hate it. I swear. I didn't have a back up for those pictures. URGHHHHH, UNHAPPY MAX MAX MAX.

Who am I?

2011-06-05T23:51:00.002+08:00

You just don't know, cause I don't show.

even when my emotions shows, you don't know the story behind them. & I won't tell.
even when I tell, I won't say everything.

When I smile, they may be fake.

When I am sad, I seldom show.
When I teared, I hid under the blanket.

When I am Happy, I share my joy.

So, tell me now. Do you understand?

I kept everything to myself. & wonder when why I explode someday.
It's not like I don't want to share. (maybe I do share a bit here and there with a few friends)

& to the pathetic fact that, I actually have no one to share with. Yes, None.
I hate gaining sympathy from the others.I don't want others to worry for me.
& when I share my story, what can my listener do besides lending me a listening ear? (maybe feeling sad for me?) Can they feel for me?
& it's not like my life is the end of the world. I have to tell myself. It's not. cause there are so many many many more unfortunates out there. If they aren't complaining, why should I?
Who am I to complain about my life anyway?

I am not the worst, & I don't want to be like one-of-a-kind selfish-er that only knows how to exaggerate on how bad their life is. & I don't want to sound as if like, my life is very tragic.

I take what I am experiencing as parts and parcels of my life.

Everyone has their own problems, their own difficulties. but everyone is moving on. Who am I to blame anything on what I am facing and experiencing now?

I gotta admit that, I do complain about my life. but I complain just to make myself feel better. I complain just to encourage myself to move on.

I always believe that, Life is not fair. but God is. (god, I trust you so much, please prove it to me that you will lend your helping hand)

Sometimes, you ought to look deeper into things rather than the surface.
You will never understand what one is going through unless you were in their shoes.

But you can't be in their shoes, cause every pair of shoes had only 1 owner. that's the fact. You can share, but you can't own them.
Just like, you can share your joy,sorrow, anger in your life to someone, but.. can you give your life to them? or in another words, can you swap life with others?

NO. You can't. if that's the case. everyone would want to be the one that has the best life. who's there to suffer? You can pity someone, but would you want to be like them? NO. (unless you are their parents or someone you really love).

I wish, I wish I can stop thinking negatively and move on with my life. time waits for no man. There's no way I can just complain about my problems and let it vanish into the thin air. It won't happen. I hate it when I am so affected by the others. Sometimes, it is not even my problem, but I choose to poke my nose in and get myself into a moment whereby I can't express. Maybe I am a busybody, but I care for those whom I love. Tell me now, am I wrong?

I hate being myself now. Nothing seems to cheer me up.I am just trying my best to be happy & i find myself so fake. I had long forgotten the last time where I had my real great laughs. I had long forgotten the time where I had a happy family. I had long forgotten the time whereby getting scolded by my mama was my greatest worries. I had long forgotten, what is happiness....

Perhaps, perhaps I have grown up and ought to shoulder the responsibilities of my own life. I can't live in my comfort zone anymore. perhaps life is like this & that I still have not adapt to it. perhaps, everyone has changed in time. perhaps, I am too blessed when I am young that I feel so suckish as compared now. Perhaps, I had done things wrong that god is punishing me now.

Sometimes, it is really not just me, myself & I. but the ones around me. I care for them. I feel for them. but like what I said. I can't be in their shoes. I can't feel what they are thinking. I don't feel good when I know that someone I care is in trouble, but I can do nothing much to help. I think I sucks in being everything, Myself, a daughter, a friend, a soul-mate.

I wish, I wish for many things in life that will never happen.

It is to a point where I don't even understand myself. I don't know what I am thinking. I have problems controlling my emotions. I lie to my own feelings. Who am I? am I the aipoh that have grown and changed? or am I someone else living my aipoh's body? I don't know. I really don't.

All I wanna say is, don't judge me. things might not be what you are assuming or thinking. life might not be that great for me. If you wanna know, ask. I will tell you if I want to. Why guess & gossip & get no ending right? There are things that are beyond your knowledge... Please do understand.

Life goes on-

aipoh

HI JUNE!

2011-06-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

Wah Wah Wah! it has been so long since I last blogged. :<.

& it's June already! how time flies~!
I hope that June will be kind & nice to me. (June, you heard me?)

Really has so many things to blog, but I have little time for personal affairs!
I don't have the time to blog everyday. regarding what has happen. It will be pretty much boring if I really do so. Maybe I should have a 10-10 blogger rule for myself! which is, to sum everything up & blog (at least) once every ten days! To keep track of what I have done ah! Imagine, 10 years down the road. I will be typing in whatever explorer software. ai-poh.blogspot.com. (hopefully blogger still works). then. TA DA. i can read about my past! :D

& also, I can post whatever I am happy with as and when I like. Sounds like a great idea. I gonna make things work out this way then! :D

Back to what I wanna say. SCHOOL IS KILLING ME. okay, not the school. but the assignments. If you realise, I haven't been blogging much ever since I went back to school. T_T. No time you know, NO TIME. 24 hours a day, where got enough ?:<. I have to use 2 weeks to study things that has been gone through the past 7 weeks. How awesome! (NOT). as you know, I NEVER like to study. >.<. & with such system in poly, perhaps, I will NEVER do well for my exams. But, can I let that happen? NO. I promised to work hard. Harder than steel!

Next, Tabby has gone for servicing! basically to update himself! so, I have got 551 to accompany me! I love her! so cute & sweet! I prefer her to tabby. WHY DID THAT SALESMAN LIE TO ME?! (read my previous post if you have no idea what I am talking about) Oh well, anyway... tabby has its own good. I love his Big Big screen! ^^. makes typing with phone less bitch! (pls und, I have got fat fingers la!).

Moving on, I AM SELLING THIS LONGCHAMP BAG! (on behalf for my couzie)
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In addition, If you're keen in buying long champ bags. You may also e-mail me! I will be taking orders. :)
More details of the pricing & etc will be given only when I receive your mails/texts.
& also, there will be IN-STOCK sales soon! (do view my blog!)
It's 100%, CHOP+ guarantee AUTHENTIC & BRAND NEW! :D & Definitely cheaper MORE THAN $50 of the boutique price!
if you are have any doubt, feel free to ask me. but please dont waste my precious time! Thanks! ^^

PS: do help me spread around!

My e-mail: Ai-Poh@hotmail.com
Phone No: PM me in FB to get it!: http://www.facebook.com/aipoh

Okay, that's all for now.
Back to my researchhhhhhh.:<

Happy.....

2011-05-17T21:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST WANG LEE HOM!

a.k.a MY HUSBAND! ❤❤

Com'on people! I have adored him since 9? Yes!:D
He is my self-proclaimed husband. HEHE. age is not a problem!
I doubt I need to brag how good he is, how talented he is, how handsome he is, how perfect he is.
You just have to know!

But sobs, Yahoo news report that he MIGHT BE getting married this year, but the bride is not me! T_T.
NVM, it is okay. as long as he is blessed!

He is one of the few that comes up with great song like this!

❤ MY HUBBY LEE HOM AH! KUDOS TO YOU!

anyway, Happy birthday~! HAHA.

& HAPPY VESAK DAY!
Thank god for this public holiday~! :D

VOTE PEOPLE. VOTE PLEASE

2011-05-17T18:24:00.005+08:00

I AM GETTING A HAIR-REVAMP SOON!

WHICH DO YOU THINK WILL SUIT ME MORE?

Or ANY HAIRSTYLES TO INTRO ME?

Style: 1

Style: 2

Style: 3

I can't find it. but i will be just trimming abit here and there. get a new colour & highlights! ^^

Style:4

Your recommendations.

Ps: I will credit you!

Most prolly, getting something like that, but not exactly the same. cause I have my own style ah!

Although I (think I) will complain non-stop after cutting. but, it's time for a change!

& !!!!

I WANT BUY A TOTE BAG!!!

(peiling, you heard me? haha. My many many years presents!)

Any dear friends wanna sponsor me?? My belated B'day/X'mas/CNY/*fillintheblank* presents!

I know I damn thick skin ah! haha.

Note: I wont be sharing the brand till I bought it.^^

Price is range from $300-$500. (just a gauge, might be cheaper or more ex)

But, I think this suits me so well right? got pink de. but if i were to get, I will buy black!

more universal mah!

(peiling, I know you dun like shiny(PVC) surface lah! haha.)

Then this also not bad, but I dun like the colour, easy dirty! & scare the strap will bi zha!

Disclaimer: I am not one that will go for branded. & I dont buy high-end brandeds. I can't bare to.

& I love money more than branded(s).

In addition, I dont like those 99.9% look-alike fake goods.

I rather buy something brand-less than to look so fake.

I am not being extravagant.

It is just that I feel like, I want a low-middle end branded tote bag.

It is not like, I want to own so many of such items. Just a few will do. (for now)

& since I am 18, it is time to get it!

Cause I felt that it is something I will treasure more when I own it.

either when I buy it myself or got it as a gift.

(FYI: whatever bags above $100? I own now is a gift.mostly from my sis lah)

So, please stop judging me and categorizing me as someone spendthrift or whatsoever.

Neither am I whatever "千金“。 Cause If I am that rich, I would have bought whatever I like, do whatever I want. WITHOUT thinking this much I am thinking now.(Afterall, I am a Pisces. Can't be blamed. )

no doubt I have many other things that will add up to a large large sum, & many things that others long to have. & I buy alot.

I know/think I got BIPOLAR DISORDER lah!

I can't stop buying. (but I still know right from wrong kays!)

BUT IT IS MY MONEY (indirectly) WHAT! Who are you to judge? Jealous ah?

Stop poking your nose into others life. & please stop copying me in whatever I purchase.

What I meant is copying deliberately and act like you didn't. -_-

Oh well, like what I said in my tweeter.

I am gonna heck care those people who are bitching about me.

I love myself too much & believe that I am too awesome to be judge like that.

& I shall ignore those ignorant idiots that doesn't know how to appreciate me!^^

PS: not referring to anyone ah, just THOUGHT of something! (wonderful memories) & just saying only! unless you feel guilty ah! but, I believe that everyones likes me!& will like me eventually. (when they get to know me) RIGHT? HAHA

Ta-da!

Byebye!

DO GIVE ME SUGGESTION FOR MY HAIR!

(leave a comment, text me or whatever)

BACK TO SCHOOL!

2011-05-15T20:13:00.001+08:00

I AM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL! :D

YES & NO AH!

Byebye!

tic tac mini!

2011-05-11T19:45:00.001+08:00

cute right?!

although I find the boxes very environmental unfriendly!
but I have thought of the uses for it!

eg:put medicine and categorize by day or type
earrings
rings
necklaces
eyelashes?!
and also as protector for your nails when you paint them!
sim card! memory card!
beads or buttons

got so many uses can!:)

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Mr Yam Ah Mee!:)

2011-05-10T18:50:00.007+08:00

ps: just a short post for my idol! I swear I gonna blog and share more about him! he is the hot favourite and the main topic for the Singapore general elections 2011! He shot to fame overnight! got many articles about him now ah! you can go read!:)

Mr Yam ah mee, damn cute and handsome right! got the charisma and super charming! got dimples somemore! (My sis just made me realised his hair so nice & neat! alot somemore! don't know what shampoo he using!) My Yam is sure a very talented and capable man! I believe that most Singaporeans would have heard of him and his splendid job done! I think his neck sure super tired! & his throat sure damn strained! (he appeared for 27 times in the 5 anticipating hours!) & some of you might treat him like a idol! (just like me!)

I really like and adore Mr yam ah mee a lot a lot!:) he is like my idol! I think he did a great job being the returning officer for the general elections! worth my respect! and he super big hearted also! *likes* (y)(y)(y) he is someone who loves to smiles, so I think he did his job very well for the 27 times repeating the few same words.

"parliamentary general election 2011. . . pursuant to section 49, sub section 70. paragraph A of the parliamentary election act. I declare that. . . "

This is a funny video! I didn't post this to tease him ah! just wanna share something for laughs only! The creator of this video damn bad! I swear! make fun of george yeo somemore! (george yeo lost was damn sad. T_T, although I honestly prefer workers party to win that GRC)

This is the formal one! (announcing the victory of the toughest battle!)

He did his job super well right! just that.. Is Sylvia ah! not Silver! :D
Now you know why his neck tired?

despite people joking about his monotone voice and etc, he is still very nice to everyone! so magnanimous! & can even reply questions with great sense of humour!
definitely someone very great and super friendly! someone to look upon to! I respect him a lot! I think I damn bad to laugh at him at first, hope he doesn't mind! cause I really cannot refrain myself from laughing!! I wonder how can he be so calm and solemn during his job! I take my hats off him! & he made my day!

if only he happens to read this, here is something I would like to say!:
sorry Mr yam! I apologise for my Imature and childish acts.(I didn't laugh that much anyway!& I didn't make fun of you!really!!) after knowing more about you, I think that you deserve my full respect! thanks for doing such a great job! hope you get well soon!:)

Oh! being super trendy! he even set up his own fan page and accept all request in his Facebook!
got his merchandise somemore leh!
& he is my friend in Facebook!:)
(can he be my god-father?haha)

I wanna share stories about him!!! so many fun,interesting and amazing facts bout him!!! if you read about him, your jaws might drop!!
(but I got no time!:()

anyway, hope.he recovers from his surgery due to the fishbone soon!!!

EVERY SINGAPOREANS LIKES MR YAM AH MEE! (I gonna believe it that way!)
MR YAM AH MEE FOR THE WIN LAH! :D

loves;
aipoh!

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ANGRY TTM

2011-05-08T23:09:00.001+08:00

5 minutes ago.

I made a long long post using my phone. (blogger-droid)

& GUESS WHAT?

It failed uploading and my post is gone!

Anyway, I was talking about Ms Tin -Her good and badssss.
I got so many queries in mind & so many recommendations to give!
So much for my effort trying to type so long using my phone! #$%^&*()

Have you heard the lastest news from SM goh?

They are not going to remove TPL from the GRC unless the whole PAP team is removed. -_-.
(What more can we say?!)

There is so much I would like to comment on. BUT MY POST WENT MIA. (looks like I shouldn't comment much on this yea?)
Anyway, I am too lazy to re-type what I previously mentioned.( at least for now)
I hope I can find ways to retrieve my missing blogpost.
Can somebody help??

Bye

Who do you think?

2011-05-08T05:22:00.008+08:00

I know I should sleep now but I am excited much. I wanted to post blog entries before the general elections but.
1) I am too lazy
2) I don't want to be a pro-member of any parties.
3)I have no time
4)I am not good with words and don't want to create an uproar.
5) I scare I become too patriotic.

but now!
after the elections! my eyes is stuck on the TV & my laptop from 9.30pm till it ends. 4am & I don't feel tired at all. I am like busy tweeting (do read all my tweets if you have the time! LOL) & I got many retweets as well. this proves that people agrees with me! no? & I am so curious now! THE NCMPs! who will it be??

From what I know, and have heard of and research on.
NCMPs- Non Constituency Members of Parliament.
shall not elaborate more about it, but if you do wish to know.
here is a link to share:)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Non-constituency_Member_of_Parliament

Okays!
this year, PAP has gotten 82 seats and the Opponents from workers party has gotten 6 seats from the parliament!

(Pro-PAP, don't tell me you not happy with the results ah!)

You might want to review the voting results again.:)
here is the link!
http://www.elections.gov.sg/elections_results2011.html

So, Base on my calculation. (do correct me if I am wrong!)
There will be 3 NCMPs this year! :D
The NCMP rule states that if there are less than 9 election opposition MPs, the NCMP will fill up the vacancies. Meaning, now there is 6 elected opposition MPs, there will be 3 NCMPs! (correct not?)

& the NCMPs comes from the losing opposition team that has the highest percentage! meaning, best performance lah!

& the best 5 teams are:
49.64% Lina Chiam, SPP
48.99% Yee Jenn Jong, WP
45.17% East Coast GRC team, WP
43.35% Marine Parade GRC team, NSP
43.06% Bishan-Toa Payoh GRC team, SPP

PS: each GRC team can send a maximum of 2 candidates!

Now, the exciting part!
who do you think will be our NCMP??

Now I am proposing a few candidates!
I am not going to beat round the bush and make long comments but just a short write-up of what i feel.
Please go search for more information about them if you are interested:)

*DRUM ROLLS*

#1
HOT FAVOURITE:

NICOLE SEAH.
I think I don't need to elaborate much right?
just go google bout her! and search for her youtube videos! :D

Here is the latest 'Thank You' letter she has written! (right after the elections!)
http://news.asiaone.com/News/AsiaOne%2BNews/Singapore/Story/A1Story20110508-277687.html
HEHE, I KNOW I DAMN FAST :)

& Something to share!
Nicole Seah lodging a complaint against! Tin Pei Ling. (In case you don't know)

http://news.asiaone.com/News/AsiaOne%2BNews/Singapore/Story/A1Story20110507-277654.html

Stupidity much? Don't know how she got into the PAP-marine parade team.
I hope the elections people will do some justice for NSP lah!

#2:
THE COUPLE with good credibility.

MR/MRS CHIAM SEE TONG.

I know right, mr chiam may be old and his health condition might be threatening.
but he has got his wife and his team to pass down his spirit! He is definitely a great leader of Singapore & someone commendable! I feel for him as he is trying his best to speak up for us in parliament and to garner support from us during his rallies. despite the unfair treatments he has gotten! but he is always fighting for more for us! It is definitely our lost to have lose him as an MP. (just like how we lost george yeo)

We should give Mr chiam (or his wife) a chance! i think 5 years later like a bit too late! he need to retire and have a good rest leh! maybe he should rest now and give advice to his wife if his wife is chosen?

#3!
Good performance one.

Mr Yee Jenn Jong.

Okay, I have to admit. I don't know much about him. but since his percentage is so close with the PAP. he must be quite good right? (& to be fair, 1 from NSP, 1 from SPP, 1 from WP., the 3 parties that has good performance) I really don't know much about him, so I shall not comment that much. but this is his blog??http://yeejj.wordpress.com/about/!

#4
The Unrelated one.

DR ANG YONG GUAN.

haha! don't know if anyone agrees with mem, & I don't know why also, I find him super funny! damn cute! we definitely need someone funny to bring excitement to Singapore right? I SHOW YOU A VIDEO AH! ( found by random!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ChBhJKFI58U
Wonder how will he talk like in the parliament! haha!
no lah! but I think he really has got guts! Sure can voice out for us in parliament! and you ought to agree with his points brought out! (although he abit naggy ah! & laugh to himself too much!)
& he is a psychiatrist! he can read people mind!:) & maybe can provide free service as an MP to those citizens in need right? as you know, seeing the psychiatrist is so expensive! or maybe he can provide service to those people that lost their fortunes in the casino. Since these people donated so much to the government, we can somehow repay them a bit mah?

But! his GRC not the best performing de!

LASTLY!
I would like to nominate GEORGE YEO as an NCMP also! but NCMPs comes from the opposition! how ah? can PAP make an exception? (like how PAP make an exception to add tin pei ling into the team?) Or, can George Yeo join any opposition team now anot?
I know I damn rubbish lah! haha
but if only, if only HE CAN REPLACE TIN PEI LING.
come'on. Government. ask the Singaporeans to vote.
I believe the votes of George Yeo - Tin Pei Ling will be.. 90% - 10%
(ms Tin, don't say i never give you face kays! don't stomp your feet ah! If not that you have such friend DENISE HO that made such a honest mistake, I will have supported you more despite your kate spade pose! Let's move on kays? )

See he smile so happy in this picture!
We will sure miss his smile! stay strong Mr George! 无年后！又是一条好汉！Come back 5 years later kays! But please join other constituency! cause I don't want to lose the Good MPs from Workers Party in the Aljunied GRC! (Ironic much!)

Okay!
anyone else???
I believe there are still many other good candidates around!
maybe they keep such a low profile that I don't know them well.
I gotta admit. I can't remember all the names of the candidates. (Don't tell me you can lor!)

Oh!
btw!
I find the announcer Yah ah mee damn cute also!
Here is his fans page!
http://www.facebook.com/YamAhMee.ReturningOfficerExtraordinaire
somehow, I think he looks like those old school teachers in the 70's! only lacking those thick frame black specs! really!!
Maybe he can work in the parliament as the announcer like., announcing what they will be debating on for the day. (Good good right?) Haha.

Alrights.
SO WHAT ARE YOUR VIEWS PEOPLE??

It's 5.20 now.
so I gotta TTFN! :D (such a nice word to use)
buh-bye!

Am I making the right decision?

2011-05-08T03:37:00.002+08:00

PETITION AND APPEAL LETTER MUST BE WRITTEN. I don't care if it implicates me, I want the best for singapore!

AIPOH, please pluck up the courage.although your letter might not be read, and your plan might not work. but at least you try.

I don't know why I have such strong feelings regarding this general elections.
maybe it has got to do with my age. I feel that I must do my part as a Singaporean. I want to contribute. I want the best for Singaporeans.
I am a Singaporeans too. I feel the strong passion in me now. & this passion shall not die. It's time to serve the country.
I care for the welfare, future, happiness and concerns of my fellows, Singaporeans.

I am not asking for something that is unreasonable and ridiculous. (eg; Closing down the Casino, killing anybody)
but, I would really want to raise up the issues most singaporeans (at least me and most of my friends) are unhappy with. some feedbacks that can make singapore a better place. (why not right?)

Since facebook page has been created, blogs and twitters has been complaining. and words of mouth has been spreading. I can't be that wrong right? I am not looking at the media and social network that are bias towards any parties. I am looking at the general.
Of course, I wont be smearing/hurting any parties cause I felt that every candidates and parties has done their best for this Elections. & they are brave enough to have stand up and volunteer to be the leads for Singapore.

I will update more on what are the issues to be raised and written in my letter.
I have to admit that I have poor english, I might not be smart, I might not make a good leader, I might be under 21. I might not be in any position to speak. But I gotta try.
I know there will be people supporting me and of course, people who thinks that I am insane or foolish. people who hates me for god-knows-what reason. but, I don't care. I am doing what I think is right.

The government told us to voice out more of our opinions yea? Maybe my letter will work as a good feedback form?
No doubt that some facts wont be changed. but I hope the Government can hear what majority of the Singaporeans really thinks.
They ought to know what are some areas that can improve themselves on.

lastly, these are just my opinions in my point of view. No hard feelings.

Loves;
aipoh

PS: But, OMG.How should I start?

I AM WAITING FOR THE RESULTS!

2011-05-08T00:03:00.001+08:00

I want to record this historical moment in my blog.

but I don't want to miss out anything!

I am going back to my twitter! :D

& YES!

I am tweeting!

DO FOLLOW ME TO SEE MY VIEWS REGARDING #SGelections! :D
http://twitter.com/#!/aipoh

Learned from PM LEE. TTFN.

TA TA FOR NOW! :D

PS: might copy paste all my tweets to my blog! :D
& what I predict seems damn accurate! even with the percentage! :D
ALJUNIED GRC. WP-PAP. 55%-45%.
& I AM HAPPY! I am like the second octopus paul can? hahaha.:D

are you excited??

2011-05-07T16:24:00.001+08:00

yes I am! yes I am!

I worry for the future of Singapore!

I shall not elaborate much here in my blog! I scare I will say non stop!

but if you would like to know my views regarding the elections. you may follow me on twitter!:)

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The feeling you get.

2011-05-05T15:15:00.003+08:00

-When your bunch of good friends went out and leaves you out.

-When you SMS your friends, and you get no replies.

-When you did not receive any form of messages when many of the others from your cliques did.

-When you are sick and NONE of your friends showed any concern.

-When you missed lesson and you can find no one to seek help from.

-When you see people enjoying themselves, and you had to coop at home.

-When you treat someone you thought it is important to you well, but they don't even care.

-When you are being left out, and you could do NOTHING about it.

I don't know what I should be feeling now. :X
I feel that there is no point to be so thick skin to tag along with your 'you-think-your' best/good friends. If they have the heart, they will remember you and contact you. ( No matter what)
I don't want to be that contact person anymore. meaning, I wont be the one, pestering my friends, and demanding anything from them.
So much for missing them, and thinking that they are missing me too. I am that stupid, I KNOW.
I shall not look upon myself as one of them, so I wont feel so sad when I am being left out.:)
Maybe I am not even part of them to begin with.
Expectations leads to dissapointments.

I HATE BEING LEFT OUT BY THE PEOPLE WHO MEANT SOMETHING TO ME.
call me unreasonable or what, I don't care.
I am feeling damn !@#$%^&* now.
Maybe I really failed as a friend, that is why most of my friends are failing me now.
& I don't know what to do when I returns school.
I think I gonna die so badly. I think I might get outcasted.
for sure, I will feel damn weird and out of place.
I better depend on myself.
thank god I still have that very few friends whom I can rendered help and support from.
& of course, my family members.

PS: don't assume anything and flame me again. Your words and actions always hurts without notification.

a little to share.

2011-05-03T00:18:00.002+08:00

haha. I didn't took much pictures. cause I have no mood to take picture after the fall! (no la, I am just kidding!)

just saying, I am staying strong.
don't worry people who are worrying for me.
this will be a great experience to have gone through in my life. a very important life lesson learnt.

although I lose many things, but I gained some too. I have those princess life since I can't move about easily!
I know who are the ones whom I can trust and who are the ones who cares.

thanks for all those concerns and little encoragments!

although I complain a lot ( I think I shouldn't but I can't help) ,I am still moving on. not gonna dwell on too much on the past. instead, I gonna ask myself.
" how can I make tomorrow a better day!":) .
think of the more unfortunates and feel more fortunate.
to add on, I gonna ask myself everynight, "what have I learn today"(even from my mistakes made) and apply what I have learnt tomorrow for a better future. move on aipoh! jiayou jiayou! get the fighting spirit back! & never forget your principles of life!

hahaha. I secretly wants to be the leader of tomorrow! lol. but I don't know when that 'tomorrow' will arrive!

don't miss me too much people! I will be back from hiatus soon!:)

so many things I wanna do!, god, please be fair and give me some extra time!:)

I wanna meet my friends so badly!

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Worst fall ever.

2011-05-02T20:06:00.002+08:00

Hi, there I am.
going way back to APRIL'S FOOL DAY.
that unpleasant day that is so traumatizing.

Okay, I went to a particular camp, being a helper. Thanks to my clumsiness, cock-eyeness, screw-driver legs, the slippery venue, the uneven steps, the half-way railings. I fell. & I broke/fractured my leg. apparently, the bone crack and split into 2. ( god knows why, perhaps my body is too big for my leg, or vice versa. I am a size 5.5-6.5 footer with a watermelon body.) It is just a freaking 2 steps. I once rolled down a flight of stairs and I only got orh-chei. (blue black). this time round, is really. SI BEI SWAY.

alrights, back to the point.
Staying strong, as usual, I laughed away my pain. I swear it is very painful and everyone around me thought I just sprained my leg. & there is NO ICE PACK. (nice one ah). They apply heat cream instead. and kinda like twist around, trying to fixed my leg back for me. Okay, I reckoned this is when I got my joints dislocated. Maybe it already went out of place, but the doctor says that all those twisting and rubbing made it worst. what can I say right?

I swear I dont feel like moving anywhere after the fall, It seems like every little movements hurts a million. You wont know how it feels unless you are the victim. & even when they said that they can ask a few guys to move me, I dont want to. (somehow, I dont like people touching me). I even handled my own abrasion on my knee. & struggling back to the room (a place where they gather). After a few hours in that room. I realised, MY LEG HAS SWELL. so badly that i feel that my skin is gonna ripped anytime.

I, once again. struggled my way out and dialed for a cab. (thanks hongliang for leading the cab in). & when I reached home. I couldn't tolerate further. I broke down. It was really too painful to imagine. My mum reprimanded me and got very angry. (for the good safety measurements that camp has, and feel that it is not worth to help out). & then I am sent to my aunt house... & then to the A&E.

Had my X-ray done and cast on. I was hoping that I didn't have to operate on my leg. but.. I was so wrong. My condition got worst on 4th april. & I had to admit to the hospital immediately. -_-.

& i realised that I aren't as strong as i thought. I cried till i lost my voice. & had a bad sore throat and cough. It is not only the pain i am experiencing, but also, I can feel the pain of my dear ones around me. My mom, he mama, uncle, cousins, and those that cared. I felt really bad to have caused all these troubles. & I am afraid of any after-effects that will cost me, with or without the operation. I know, my leg wont be as strong as compared already, & i can be considered as a 'handicapped'. I don't know what will happen after placing a metal plate and screws inside my leg. I dont know how can I face everyone with a big scar and limping leg. I hated everything and blame on whatever I could. Apparently, my family members got more enraged than me. If only immediate rescue could be done, it could have salvage the severity.. YEAH, IF ONLY. T_T. who can I blame right? the only thing I could blame is my fate, and the only person i could pin-point is myself.

I dont care what you gonna say, but No one can say anything about my family in blaming that particular camp, blaming the 'good' safety measures taken, blaming the kind of friends I have got in that cca. blaming me for going to that camp.They have all rights to lodge any complaints. (if you have no wrong, you wont be afraid of others complain right?!) I believed that they feel more pain than me. Of course, they would want to best for me right? & they always felt that what I have done, is NOT worth it at all. I am thinking about this as well, who appreciated what I have done right? maybe it seems like I have done nothing, but I am really going in for all, doing my best. & helping whenever I could. & that sets me into a tinged of sadness as well. It is so disappointing, sad, angry, enriching. & a good lesson learnt.

I learn that I should not be as foolish already. and I learn to see who are the ones whom I can trust from this incident. I should say, those who are supposed to show concern, didn't even ask a little bit about my condition. YES, THEY DIDN'T. (I am not implying to those that seldom show their concerns to others) & also, I realised I have lost many 'good' friends/seniors, People I thought that is my good friend is now my friend. I put myself into their shoes and thought what they felt,
"wah lao, this aipoh.. damn clumsy one leh, super troublesome de lor"
"OhMy, aipoh fall down again? aiyoyo"
the best caption I could thought of is.
"OMG,are you okay? so poor thing leh"

Let me tell you this now,

when a accident happens, nobody expected it, nobody wanted it.

Especially to those big-mouther out there who doesn't know anything and just assume and cook up story on my behalf. simply STFU, TYVM.

I would just like this matter to rest. Praying that all end well.

Disclaimer: I am not trying to blame/pin-point anyone here, cause I feel that It is my fault to have fallen myself.

Who really and actually cared? who truly showed their concerns? who has offered their helps?
Who has thought of how I felt? Who has put themselves in my shoe?

I have to thank those that cared, & those that helped. Thank you very much. I cannot express how glad I am to have you around me, just to thank god for having you guys by my side. & I am definitely that type that will go all the way for my friends and those that will return favors. especially to dearly hemama, my uncle and cousins that have gave me so much help,care,assistance for the past few weeks ( I have been staying at their place since accident). & also, my dearly great mom that love me so much. These are the people who truly cares.:)

-Thanks EAI for the well-wishing card as well. Friends reading my blog. I WANT A GET-WELL-SOON CARD!!!! :D. with these cards, I think I can get well faster!

& life still goes on,
I had my operation on the 5th April. (1 month right after my birthday!) and discharged on the 6th April. I pestered them for early discharge! no place feels better than home! & the hospital gives me a weird and indescribable feeling. I have to thank all the nurses and of course, my doctor. the operation was a successful one:). all the nurses super nice to me! & they are so friendly as well! believe it or not, they took turns to come and talk to me! they said they find me very interesting! hahaha.! & the aunties in the same ward with me on the first day is super nice as well! (hope they get well soon!)

Okay, and now... counting down to 6 weeks after my operation. & I can report to school already!
I am on my recovering route now! & I can stand and walk a few steps today already! although the doctor told me not to walk as the metal plate might bent and my bone will grow out of shape. but I am so tempted to walk! really! i almost forgot the existent of my leg for the past few weeks. it just feels like something that always hurts!
& not to mention, I kept on tripping and knocking everywhere I could cause I damn kan-jiong. Painful much! & I fall on my back in the toilet last monday. T_T. a real bad fall. bruises on my legs, and I hurt my head and back also.

But nevermind, it is only 2 more weeks from nowww~ YAY!

I am damn afraid now, cause I am losing out alot. Alot Alot more than I expected.
I am missing school. & I am missing all the recruitments and enrollments activities. ( no 2nd chance de lor! so unfair!!!!) & I am missing out the fun my friends are having!! SEE! how much I missed out thanks to this accident.

I swear i miss my friends and classmates alot lor. I wonder if they missed me too? :)

& also! my driving BBT! :(! I waited 1 months plus for the appointment on 18th MAY. and I have to pass my evaluation 10 days before my BBT. this means that I can't go for my long-awaited BBT. Cause, there is no life in BBDC. -_-. Fine, I booked another appointment in JUNE. 23rd JUNE.( remind me please.) There is no refunds for test, so i just donated $6 to TP/BBDC. & I have to wait for another 1 month +!!!

Conclusion: Watch your steps. & do not fall.

So much for this fall, will update with some pictures in my next post. :)
there is so much more I would like to elaborate on. but I guess, this blogpost is long enough to conclude almost everything.

PS: I WANNA BLOG SO BADLY ABOUT SG VOTE 2011! the overwhelming general elections!

my s551

2011-04-30T22:34:00.001+08:00

tell me, tell me how to not get angry.
1 months plus ago, rmb the phone that I wanted to get?
rmb what that asshole salesman told me?

miss, it is out of stock. and if you were to wait, you might need to wait forever also cannot get. the stock not coming anymore.

fine, I got my galaxy tab.

and I saw it online. the same network I am using. m1. ya, got stock. tmd. really knn.

then my mum got it for me la. and cause I cannot find my sim card. ( for another line). I left it there. never to thought I will end up with my current accident. and I have not went home since camp. I received the phone few days or maybe a week before camp. so I decided not to bring it along with me. okay fine. conclusion is. the phone has been rotting there for weeks. maybe 1month up till now.

today I open the newspaper, to my amazement. that breaking phone cost $0( with contract) . and I fucking got it for $148( with contact) .

the point is that. why did the salesman lie to me. tmd.
and when exactly will starhub send me the simcard? I wanna use my phone la. really angry.

I should have complaint about that salesman last time. everyone told me to do so, but I did not. why again? I also dunno. I ought to be more hard hearted. more decisive. and stop being impulsive.

okay.
from this, I can only say that.
I am stupid. fml much.

out of stock? out of stock? I hope that the stocks will drop and bury you.

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life as a year 2

2011-04-17T22:55:00.001+08:00

okay. w.e.f tomorrow. like 1 hour more. I am a year 2 already. okay. I can't experience how it would be like. cause I can't even go school :( can't even feel excited. can't even prepare new bad. pencil case. etc. and many other things!!! I can't see my dear friends. I miss them. sad but.. yea. no choice. may my leg recover soon!:).

good luck to all polynians tomorrow!!:)
hope all is well! jiayou!:)

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fear

2011-03-24T22:54:00.001+08:00

I don't want to say this. and I don't wish that to happen. but this kind of omen is killing me. I predict that there will be more upcoming disasters. for our beautiful mother earth. this kind of feeling sucks. I hope what I felt won't happen.

and what's more. the impact of all these will.not be small. many innocents will suffer. :( 因果轮回 is so scary.

2012 will not be the end of the world. it is just another beginning of many. treasure your life people, for it is something that is bless to you.

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the holiday that doesn't seems like a holiday.

2011-03-22T00:22:00.001+08:00

zomg. can you imagine!? half of our holiday is gone. I am talking about poly holiday la.
and ahhhhhhhhh. ohmygod. ohmylord. ohmytian. results will be out in a few hours time. I think I will cry tomorrow sial. really is shit leh. haish. I don't want to forward module!! really!I doubt anyone wants to. but seriously. omg. I am damn worried now. panick. nervous. kanjiong. how. how. how? !?!??!???

I am trying to relax la. but I can't! let me try to divert my attention! recently. I have not been blogging cause I am preparing for camp. :) hehe. I admit I am not working as hard as others la. but at least I am trying!! I seriously learnt a lot. although it is kinda tiring, but when I think of the outcome... I am willing. willing to do almost everything. aja aja!

my word of advice is. don't complain. really. do first. then give feedbacks and suggestions for improvement!:) everything is done for a reason! trust me. and the knowledge and experience you gain will be something that will benefit you for life. once you start complaining. you won't be able to enjoy. you will feel like it is a tiring chore instead of enjoyment. (I have been through this before, and I complain like there is no tomorrow in the past) endurance and patience and your listening ears is the key to success. learning is a never ending process.学无止境. take in whatever you can and give them out when time comes. pass down knowledge. when you accomplished something, you will definitely feel the great sense of achievement. everyone is working hard for their goals, fulfilling their task, and filling colours to their life. if they can do it. so can you! remember, you are just a nobody. no one is the best. that is why we are learning and working hard to be the best. this is life. and I am also learning...

no one longs for a mundane life.
ask yourself, if your life were to be a show, how many audiences will you have.

jiayou aipoh. jiayou everyone. with everyone. impossible is nothing! this is how important every single one of us are. just like how a puzzle needs every piece to be completed. even if you are not the one holding the main roles now, you are still important as supporting roles. if you ever felt lost, cool down and think through slowly. I believe you will be able to find your own path that will lead you to a greater life soon!

okay, I think I shall stop nagging once I start blogging. jiayou everyone. we are in this Together! and we can do it! cause we are awesome!:)

suddenly I feel like saying this quote I thought of the other day.
"if life can't gives you what you want,make use of what you have."
by. yours truly. all rights reserved.

alright. I think I should do some selling for my camp! this camp is really very awesome!really!! it simply rocks!
if you are joining sp this year. you should join this camp!:)
it is never too late to enrol now. you can pm me :)

come join our camp now!:)

so long.auvioure.
bet I won't be blogging that often now.
I think I will.
okay. contradicting much.
I am going to bathe and sleep. :)

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Like-a-Ruined.

2011-03-18T22:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I went to BBDC to enrol for my driving license.
after I reach Bukit Gombak. I realise, I didn't bring money and my bank got no money for ATM.
(first FML)

next, I realise.. EZ LINK couldn't be use. Need IC.
(yet another FML 2)

then I went sentosa for prep.
& then, thinking that I got tuition.
I rush off half-way.. and went to bathe.
while I am like on the way , On the tram.. my student called and wants to cancel the lesson. -_-.
i was hesitating if I should cancel in the afternoon lor. T_T.
(FML 3)

Oh, I forget to mention that.
I got knocked and kiap by train door.
(FML 4)
and when I am home, i realise, i never tap out.
Need to walk a big big round in harbourfront and queue for my card error.
(FML 5)

then today.
i went for enrollment.\
How nice, I brought everything I need.
but. that $1000 note i brought created so many doubts. They almost refused to collect it.
ok.
then I screwed up all my bookings and stuffs.
seriously. I know nuts about everything.
on my way back. is seriously curse and swear already.
(FML 6)

then I had a bad haircut.
_|_.
i don't know if that lady understands chinese/english.
I wanted to cut till chest length. & I showed her somemore.
but the outcome was disastrous.
I think I need to trim it later.
(FML TTVM 7)
really feel like crying.

then the whole of today, I got scared by something. shit.
& I feel asleep on the sofa, then I move to my parents' room.
& FML again.
my 'father' almost killed me when he is back.
he seems like he gotta chop me with a knife or what. Scary much.

THIS IS MY LUCK.

& i just heard from my friend that results will be out on next tuesday.
this is seriously SHITTTTTTTTTTTTT.
i really need something MORE THAN LUCK.

Haish! I don't feel like blogging already lah.
life has been so lethargic after my prep camp.
I am like sick sick sick.
my phlegm got blood! & I kinda lost my voice. Sounds man now!!!
& I had flu. SUCKS.
& I had sore throat.
& fever.
& body aches!
& injuries all over! :(
& rashes on my face!

seriously.
How can I love life.

I know I am nothing as compared to those that is suffering in the natural disasters now. & I shouldn't complain. but seriously, why am I so unlucky :(! & so sotong?? :(

Samsung and yet again!

2011-03-12T23:25:00.001+08:00

really is angry.okay.I am blogging using my galaxy tab!hiak hiak.

remember the phone I told you I like very much??
the one in pink and white? I got it! :D I must get what I want!:) haha. no leh. I am not that demanding cause I can't afford to.
I am ex changing it with my mum.
but I am kinda attached to my tab now despite the inconvenience. hehe. actually I know mummy purposely told me to get this phone because of me. haha cause she know I confirm will buay gam wan. not justified.

yes. thanks to that stupid salesperson that made me bought tab. thank you lo. nabeh. you better be thankful and glad I didn't lodge a complain. really is angry. don't know why must he cheat my feeling. and.. why the f am I so gullible. asshole.

fancy telling me islandwide out of stock.come on, tell me what am I holding from you store now? f you for lying to me.cheating my feelings. yes. I know I am mostly to be blame too. I should get iphone and settle everything once and for all. but I don't want leh. kill me la.?really is angry much. if it is a few bucks thing I will just forget it. but hello. a few hundreds! both phone cost me almost a thousand!!!

nevermind. I shall peace a bit. god is fair. he will give me what belongs to me back. chill chill. and tab isn't that bad.it is wonderful, so many people envious of me can. haha. I shall stop complaining.

most importantly, I wanna show you the cute phone I got!in pink and white. haha. I admit. I am a pink lover. hope copycats won't copy what I buy again. you know for yourself who am I talking about!

byebye!
camp tomorrow!

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Funny or what? LOL

2011-03-11T23:52:00.003+08:00

I think I am quite funny!
no? haha.
so I thought of sharing! Haha!

Pardon me for my craziness!
credits to yuxin for editing the videos:)

How awesome!
I had a great laugh!
cause I see the clumsiness in me :(!
I guess I will have to blog soon about my birthday/cscc day/ CNY!
soon! cause everytime I drag and drag. I just don't feel like blogging about it anymore!

Great day everyone!
I'm enjoying my holidays! :D

(MOVIES, Gnomeo & Juliet)

Enjoy the videos! :D

Thanks but NO THANKS.

2011-03-11T23:41:00.001+08:00

seriously,
I'm not chio/pretty/cute/gorgeous/attractive or whatever you call nice.
If you have eyes, you should know.
I can't say that I am like super ugly or what, cause I have all features on the right place.
(& I thank god for it)

but yet, I kept on receiving 'interested' e-mails.(they are not spam mails asking for NRIC or mails that says that I won prizes.).
I wonder how they got my e-mail.
& some of them sounds really interested in me, like they need me to live on. -__________-.
seriously, _|_!
please stop adding me on FB/MSN. & haunting me like a freak.
I do accept almost everyone. since I don't mind making friends. (& I am also too lazy to filter my friends).

Hi there too, I would like to receive your love but too but. I'M ATTACHED.

okay, that's a lie. but I'm unavailable.

very sorry. :(

If you are purely interested in making friends. I welcome you :)

but, I have to repeat again, I'm not looking for a relationship.

& if you do wanna get to know me, please have a better catch up line.

Thank you very much!

& if you are fans of mine.

WOAH, i feel so flattered! lol. continue reading my blog kays! :D

& of course,

I do get haters. How many I don't know, but I know... THERE IS.

let me show you :)

Haha, thank you for keeping me entertained.
& I don't really give a damn :)

I seriously feel like LOL-ing when I read the questions.
Don't believe?
Check out my formspring!
http://www.formspring.me/aipoh
seriously, how can I not know who is she/he if she/he wants to slap me.?
I am not blind. & I don't think they can masked themselves while hitting me.
if they are employing someone to do the job. I don't think it is worth it. & what's more. YOU DIDN'T EVEN GET TO SLAP ME. what for right?
if you want, come to me straight lah.

Funny much. & super entertaining.
it seems like you have disappeared for a few days. where have you been?
are you alright?
or have you realised that I am a nut that is too tough to crack?
or have you chickened out?
or, you decided to peace with me?

for whatever reason.
I really wanna thank you. LOL.
for creating such memories in my life!

:).

next up: CSCC DAY/BIRTHDAY/Videos

Now, I feels like this.

2011-03-10T14:15:00.000+08:00

T_T.

HAPPY 18!!

2011-03-05T05:28:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF :D!

Oh-so-fickle-minded.

2011-03-02T19:04:00.005+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE.

Did I tell you that I was getting a phone today?

Yes, I did.

& I spent more than an hour in the M1 shop.

Cause I have many administrative stuffs to attend to..

& I have a big problem.

A very very big problem in choosing my phone.

seriously don't know which phone to get.

I don't want to get phones that almost the whole world is using.

& I seriously sucks at using smartphones.

I know & understand all gadgets & I'm considered quite up to date.

but. I just don't know how to use lah!

stupid max!

Maybe I'm just not used to it bah.

there are so many choices. But I know I must get a smartphone liao.

cause of the technology nowadays and stuffs.

I must learn :(.

and getting a smartphone is also more worthwhile!

I caught my eye on a Samsung Galaxy 5511? or something like that.

the one in pink and white.

But. FML MAN.

OUT OF STOCK.

It's really sian max... cause I like the colour!

But!!! URGHH.. Out of stock!

somemore, the price is much more cheaper than what I have gotten. -_-.

What about HTC,

wanted to get the HTC trophy. but only got black -_-.

UGLY COLOUR. (for that material lah)

and going with my brother-in-law is maybe a wrong choice.

Cause for some reasons, he's against HTC & NOKIA. like very very much.T_T\

Then Iphone.

Haish, I know it's good.

I know it's awesome.

I know there're many pretty covers out there for me to get.

I know the camera is good.

I know there are many apps.

BUT.

everyone is getting it.

& apple de market like dropping liao. (correct me if I'm wrong)

And after hesitating for DUPER LONG.

I GOT THIS....

...

SAMSUNG GALAXY TAB.

Okay, if you were to tell me how bad this phone is.. PLEASE. NO..

I will have sleepless nights.

I'm already regretting already.

How am I suppose to call when I'm outside?

How am I suppose to message while walking.

The good thing is.. Watch movies/shows very good lor. Big & clear.

but I got 1 big laptop, 1 mini laptop, & 1 desktop. (ya, all in pink)

why i need another this for?

maybe when I'm travelling?

& CAN TAKE CHIO & CLEAR PICTURES! :D

I likey~!

(this is the main thing I see when I'm looking for phones)

& cause I'm big in size, I should get a big phone too:D.

In addition, the keypad is bigger. LOL easier to type?

Oh, and I just recalled that this phone was in 1 of my Christmas wishes.

But this phone freaking cost me $548. WITH CONTRACT.

I still need to get the protector and cover. T_T.

expensive much?

It's a birthday gift from my mum.

but I really understand her situation...& buying things so expensive is a No-No.

but, I still got it. It's mine now.

I gotta treasure it alot alot alot.

THANK YOU MUMMY!!<3

I hope the value of the phone won't drop, then I can sell it next time when I'm in need of money.

But I don't think I will sell it though. cause it's my Birthday gift!!!

Or pray hard that I get a part time job soon?

Any to Intro?

min pay. 7 per hour.

& no waitress please.

I WANT EARN MONEY DESPERATELY.

(In a right way)

cause I need to get my license.

I need to pay for many things.

I GONNA BUY 4D ON MY BIRTHDAY.

PLEASE LET ME STRIKE.

At least enough to pay for my ukiuki & monomono and tabby

This birthday is definitely is a very expensive one.

cause I got a UKIMONO+ Mini for myself.

and now, a tab from my mummy.

and I gotta pay for the BBQ+Steamboat food.

& I'm going out these few days.

Expensive 18th!

And tralalala~!

My phone's name is TABBY :D!

hehehe.

I always have names for things I own.

Oh well, time to pack up my room!

I shall sell away my pre-loves.

Please buy it from me. haha!

Disclaimer: I'm not trying to boast about what I have gotten. I'm just sharing it with my readers. & keeping track of my stuffs myself.

Loves;

aipoh

Just 3 more & maybe not.

2011-03-02T03:14:00.000+08:00

Sidetrack: HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONG KI, I still love you as much!

OKAY.
3 more days & I'm 18. :(
not really happy lah. cause I hope I can be like. forever young!

But the good thing are:
1) I can go get my driving license.
2)I can do things that are only meant for 18 and above.

WHAT ELSE?!

& I have to be responsible for all my every little things:(
& maybe, I'm not a teens, no more.

I'm officially an ADULT. mind you! haha!

Bad things, I can simple name a dozen. -_-.

Birthday wishes?
1) SECRET.
2) SECRET.
3) SECRET.
4) to grant all my wishes & give me more wishes.

haha, they said that birthday wishes ain't meant to be shared! So, can I be selfish & secretive for once?
actually I have not really thought of it. let me see what comes up my mind when I'm wishing.
(OH SHIT, I havent order my cake! shall do that tmr!)

My wants?
I have got tons, I know right, I'm sucha greedy girl!
-My wishes to be granted!
-To be rich. Richer, RICHEST. (impossible for now, But yes.. SOON!)
-ukimono (got it! my b'day gift for myself!)
-new phone (getting it later in the afternoon! since my contact has ended)
-good grades (i doubt so, but I still hope!)
-Guess watch! the bling bling one! triangle and transparent one! (love at first sight)
-LongChamp/Marc Jacob/ agnes.B bag! (my $30 and below bag all CMI de lor!!!)
-A compact pink camera! (cause I really want to take nice pictures every now & then!)
-XBOX Kinect! (to workout!)
-More clothings.(I wonder why I said this when my wardrobe is already EXPLODED)
-More shoes/heels. (ok, maybe not. I will pick from my sis's discarded, but I need a sport shoes badly! let's see who can I take them from :D)
-Some cool & unique stuffs/gadgets. (I can play with or look at it & wont get tired for a long time!(Y))
-Many many birthday cards! (hand-make one best!)
-A album all about me! (I'm expecting this from my BFF lor)
-A box with 18 gifts! (can combine de, no need ex de!)

(I'm expecting the last 3 on the list from someone!)

That's about it lah.
since I already got many things I want to have.
I think some things are better to save up/earn myself & to get it my own!
Although I will be like can't bear to buy things everytime, cause the things I want doesn't come cheap. T_T.
And the fact is that, I own many things I never thought I owned. LOL. god knows when I bought them, but YES, I HAVE THEM. maybe it's a gift or pre-love by someone. & yes, I'm a Garang Guni. I can't bear to throw things, and I take in good conditions unwanted(S).

Looking at my wants list, yea lah, I'm so materialistic. I only want expensive stuff. But, do make a guess what my wishes are! alright! don't jump into conclusion and judge me like that.

& F.Y.I, (in case you don't know) I don't go for expensive stuffs! I'm like kinda budget! (people who know me well, will know why) I'm already considered SUPER THRIFTY as compared to the past. :X. & I'm glad I'm leading my lifestyle this way now! cause I need to plan for my future! so, I only splurge once in many while!

In addition, the fact that I didn't ask anyone (yes, none) to buy presents for me, (except that few close friends of mine & my family.) I'm planning to get the few things myself when I have saved/earned enough and when I CAN BEAR TO EXCHANGE MY MONEY FOR THEM. So, STFU if you're thinking that I'm as cheap as whore. I'm not that desperate for gifts. -_-. cause although I'm not rich, but I can simply earn to get what I want for myself! More sense of achievement also! as long as the thing is very value-for-money or worth-while.

Now, for those that kept on asking what I want.

Seriously, I never expect anything from anyone unless you're someone like really close to me.

not saying that If i never ask anything from you, you're not close to me.. but..

I don't want you to waste money. & I scare I forget to buy you back your b'day present in return.

if you really do wish to get something. get something cheap & value-for money please!

If you're close (& you know it) & I didn't ask from you,

1) You must AUTO abit lah!

2) I don't want you to waste money. cause I know you will be wishing me deep from your heart.

(I suppose you know where to group yourselves! :D)

Okay, now for those who wants/need to get me a present!

Rule # 1: NO SOFT TOYS.
reason: I don't know where to place them! & I don't throw gifts away till they rot!
exceptions: they're like damn cute/memorable.

Rule #2: No Food.
reasons: after I eat it, it's gone. & there is a high chance I will keep it until it rots. & I will get fatter! >_<.
Exceptions: you give it with a card! (Y) or, it's like hand-made stuffs. Like cookies, cake, just something nice!

okay, that's it.
I think few people will give me money. LOL. most 试剂 one right!? ( useful?)
but actually,I just want something simple & memorable. & UNIQUE :D
something I will remember the purpose behind it, something that will make me remember. Many years down the road.

Okay,
no celebrations for my birthday.(on the actual day)
no party, no going-out. nothing.
except that I will be going Zoo with huiqi in the morning. If you're keen in joining! YAY, tell me! :D.
I know right, sucks max. but.. what to do.
this is my social cycle. I have either too little friends or too many hi-bye friends.
Or I have so-called friends that doesn't even bother. YA. My life is that sad.
Oh ya, I have BBQ+steamboat session at night! LOOKING FORWARD!~ *Wriggle eyebrows*.
check out FB event for more information! all are welcomed!
Maybe I will cut my cake then:D It's the joy of sharing~! Lalala~

PS: the BBQ+Steamboat is NOT a birthday celebration. Please do not come with a gift, I will kick your ass or lock you out.

& on 3rd, I'm going out with yuxin, huiqi, mulan & maybe shujie;)!
Maybe I go sit BUNGEE! G-MAX. LOL. if I do take, hope I don't die 2 days before my birthday or on hemama's birthday!
& on 4th, going out with howitzer! hope it works out well!
& then dinner with hemama,hepapa and cousin! <3
& then. H.V to havoc with huiqi! (Y) anybody wants to join my countdown?? :D

& zoooooo~! hahaha (not zouk)

Okay.
Let's count down!
byebye!

A note to self. I WILL HAVE AN AWESOME 18!
& A EVEN MORE GRAND, MEMORABLE, BLAST, AWESOME, COOL, HAPPENING, HAPPY 21st!
Check It out yo!

1 of my quotes.

2011-03-01T23:08:00.002+08:00

Life is never fair, but god is.

Or vice versa.

God is Fair, but life ain't.

I WANT TO SAY!

this is created by yours truly.
can I demand copyrights not?
All rights reserved ok? LOL

WHICH IS ME!

haha...
one of my friend 'stole it' & put it on his FB status.
& he told me, the response was overwhelming.

See, I can come up with great things. :)

Hahaha.
Seriously, I'm beginning to love & appreciate my Principles of Life, My Beliefs, and my self-made quotes and phrases.. MORE & MORE :D!

cause I know, there're people out there that agrees with me.
& I'm glad.

YAY~!

HOLIDAYS.

2011-03-01T02:17:00.000+08:00

HELLO HOLIDAYS!
I love you maximum!Please be here forever~! LOL.

I can enjoy life!
But I think I got many events on-going. & tuitionsss.

& to those still having papers, I seriously is not proud or what hor! just happy! Good Luck for your last papers! & enjoy holidays tgt!

Just a messy post to mark the beginning of holidays!
Oh well,Today is my last paper! Happy But not.
Cause.. I guess i screwed it up AGAIN..
(How well can I get when I only started like studying at 2am? slept at 3+? & continue at 6+am?)

& I went to meet WONG MIN ER FOR KBOX.
That freaking ass freaking late for more than 45 minutes!
when I called her, She said she was leaving her house. (LIAR).
Cause I exposed her! she was just preparing!
I understand girls do get more 'aimei', vain lah. when they grow older.
but I really don't understand why, she dress like she's dancing A-Go-Go. (FORGET TO TAKE PICTURES OF HER! HAHAHA)
& she must make up.
AHHH... for who to see? LOL. (must be that panda rom Kbox)
okay lah. she has changed. she wears make-up to poly almost everyday.(I think?)
I know right, from the past, she wanted to be Ai Mei. but she is condemned by us. Cause her face and height really doesn't suits everything she is doing. (everyone agrees)

OKAY, OSTRICH. I know you're/ will be reading this.
Lalala~! I purposely blog it for you to see.
SO much for being clumsy and make a fold in 4 pages of my CERT. (F YOU, seriously)
& make me wait so long!
Drink my water in KBOX and treat it as if your own drinks!

Okays, that's it.
I can't post the audio clips. But I gonna edit it soon! Since it's my HOLIDAY~! :D Hohoho. ( if i remembers lah)

Okay, as I mentioned. I collected my cert. O LEVEL CERT. It's for a OMG more than 1 year! LOL.
& that WONG AH DUMB made a dent/fold on the first 4 pages! really feel like killing her!
Don't say that I'm crazy or what.
I'm that fussy with IMPORTANT DOCUMENTS. What's more, this is the original copy & there is no replica. F ANOT?!
& I can't freaking make her pay me a new one cause she is just way too clumsy.
seriously, if you're thinking that I'm really stingy or whatsoever, Please. Keep your mouth shut. I really want my documents to be STRAIGHT and NEAT!. Hopefully It will like straightened after stacking it with other documents. (but I don't think so). I think I might freaking laminate it! & if it cost alot. I gonna make WME pay half the price. TSK.
told her to not read my portfolio, & she INSISTED. -__-! while we are walking! and she can say, it's because she see want drop already then she quickly flip. & LOOK WHAT SHE HAS DONE. URGHHHHH... I don't care if it's a small fold or wad. It just looks ugly now! (I dare not iron it!!!)
You won't know how sad I can get over that 4 important pieces of paper!

& FYI: I kept all my documents and certs well.. From Kindergartens. I'm Serious.

Okay, move on.!
I had Tze Char session with Mdm CHUNG :D!!!
HEHEHE! Nice catch-up! Oh & BTW, she's my sec 1 & 2 maths teacher! :D

Okay, I think I better be frank.
This is a warning, Please do not provoke me this few days. I'm PMS-ing. FML.Hate to be a woman. -_-. You don't know how touchy I can get over every single minor things. This is not an excuse, 99% of the woman do have lower patience limits on these days. & everything can be so unbearable. Especially what their close ones around them has done to make them irritated. & look what my bestfriend has done to make me suffer on the first day? really is TSK man.

Don't even start criticising me, with regards on my friendship. Cause you will never know how well I treat my friends unless you're one. & don't judge me by just these few words being type.

ANYWAY, I BOUGHT UKIMONO+ UKIMONO MINI. cause of my backache and big tummy. fat thigh and arms. LOL. I will update you guys the effectiveness of it! :D My set is in red! Anyway, I think I gonna sell away soon. Maybe in a few months time. Cause! I want to get KTV set :D! if you're interested! do PM me! :D I will reserve for you! confirm cheaper lah! & I will keep everything intact! the boxes, blah blah blah. whatever you can find from the brand new set. LOL

Oh, & the stalker? from my formspring.
I think we need to talk seriously. I don't know what thoughts you have of me.
But I don't fking give a damn. :) especially now. Cause I don't even know who you are. & I can't be bothered to find out lah.
If you hate me, so be it. Just hope that you wont use too much time & energy to hate me, cause you can use all these time & energy to do something better. Like; loving others instead of hating me?
& if you're like so damn annoyed by me. why are you STALKING ME?! I know you are. stop pretending like you're not :) You should just delete me away, unfollow me & stop entering my blog's url.

Okay,
I'm tired.
I needa break.:D
NIGHTS!
tomorrow got to give tuitions!

The real me.?

2011-02-28T03:10:00.000+08:00

我会让你对我刮目相看。

Please hold your jaws well.

I know I got split personalities, but most of the personalities is gonna bring me far in life.:)

People who tries to bring me down. thank you for making me stronger in life. cause you didn't kill me & gave me a chance to learn.

People who are supporting me always. thank you for your support, love and concern. I will show you what I have got. :D

People who are jealous of me. Come'on, ask me.. perhaps I will teach you a trick or two. or pass you some knowledge?

People who are like cowards. Start to love & appreciate your life more. do something more meaningful please.

People who are negative in life. Start using your brains to think. You have more purpose in life and things to achieve than to waste your time feeling sad. (this is what I always told myself)

People who are full of positive energy. Continue to feel that awesomely, & do help those poor souls around you. But never overdo/over-perform yourselves cause you will never want to attract a bunch of sickos being jealous of you.

If you're one that feel aimless in life. (just like me). You find no purpose in doing anything. I don't want to comment. It's your life. my advice is to settle down and think calmly, You will know where to head to in life someday. (SOON!). YOU WILL SUCCEED. when you believe!

That's it.
This is life.
Face it bravely. Like a man.
Never fail to remind yourselves to think twice.

I admit, It's not like I'm so damn great. cause I still have a long long way to go.
(& I have never mentioned and emphasize how great I am.)
I'm being just me.
In life, It's all your thinkings and mindsets.
Your hold your own fate. Even if you can't hold you on fate. You Choose your own route you're heading to.& that's the goal.
Life is never fair, but god is.
Prove yourselves people. You can do it.
No able man is incapable of doing anything. -By yours truly.

I'm not that easy as you think I am.
It's just that you have yet to meet the real me.

Reading my blog/following my twitter/adding me in facebook is just the basics to get to know me.
I know right, I'm that complicated. I'm Aipoh. (the one with many personalities)

alrights,
All is well.
& I can't wait for my holidays.
To rock da boomz!

PS: I'm still studying for my 9am paper later.
Seriously hate being last minute! but can't helped it!:(
I needa change!

Irritated

2011-02-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

Please do not compare me with others,cause I'm far too good to be categorized in the same group as them,neither do they hold a candle to me.

Get this fact right.
Every individuals is unique.
I'm unique and special in my own way.

If you wish to copy/imitate me or follow the things I do.
I will say, Thank You.. Cause I really didn't know I'm so influencing.
& I'm in fact happy in a way.

But stop telling others how great you are, when you don't even know what you are doing.
(okay, maybe you didn't delibrately showoff yourself/your friend. But IDC. -_- the fact that you're boasting about things that are ain't even true. I know! & you yourself know)

& don't freaking compare me with others.
I'm ME.
I just don't get why. like seriously.
You might not know that I'm really irritated by your actions. BUT, YES. I'M TELLING YOU. I AM.

& you should know and understand. When you compare, at least one party in the comparison gets hurt.

also, this includes people that can't stop smearing others, maligning them, tarnishing their reputation and bitching about others. BEHIND THEIR BACK. (that's the main pt)

S.T.O.P. I.T.
stop your childish actions.
and if you're smearing me behind me back.
please lah, the truth will come to light someday.

Maybe I'm not the victim, but what makes saying UNTRUE things about others so happy??
(If the things that you're saying, and the person you're talking about is really a bitch. then I'm not talking about you)
You seriously do all these little stupid things because you're JEALOUS.
and you Chia Pah Bo Tao Ji Zho. (eat too full, nothing to do)

My advice for you is.
GET A LIFE.
please keep your mind healthy and refrain all your chilldish actions.

Before you start saying anything. THINK first.
Even if you're that great, you don't have the rights to smear others reputation and bitch about them.. BEHIND THEIR BACK. if you have the guts. Go confront them straight. then I will call you a true gentleman/woman.
& if you ain't that great yourself, simply keep your mouth shut.
Nobody say that you can't tell others how you feel, but please do not add salt or pepper in all the statements made. Your incidents and life stories should be interesting enough for your friends to listen, if they're your true friends.& right friends should console you and provide you with solutions or just be the best listening ears. not those that will stir more troubles for you.

when one starts to bitch, the one being bitch/ their friends around them will start to bitch also. & the bitching cycle continues.

Everyone patience has his/her limits. No one can tolerate others maligning them. trust me. Even a saint err.

Kthxbye.

ECONS.

2011-02-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

Read that title. ECONS.
I always think that my econs is not bad.
but i guess.. I'M WRONG.
absolutely wrong.
maybe It's because I really didn't study. (Ok, I deserve it. I know. Please do not rub salt into my wound)
& I tikam the wrong part.
I memorize the formulas? okay, not really all the formulas cause the one i memorize didn't came out. while the ones I scanned through came out.
天意弄人. T_T.
& I didn't study theory. tell me how to crap?
And damn those stomachaches and slight fever. make me so miserable.

& what's more.
I'm always sitting around very smart people that can finish their papers like, even more than half an hours earlier than the ending time.
Tell me how not to be kan jiong.
& it's really my surrounding. AROUND ME.
i feel like kinda scared to be exact..
cause I recalled that time when I was having 39.8/39.9 fever during my ENGLISH O LEVELS.
I was quarantined and I had to take my paper alone in a room with more than 4 invigilators.
ALONE IN A BIG ROOM. fml.
okay, then I start to get panicky and nervous and things got worst.

Alright,
god bless me when the results comes out.
hopefully, I'm able to pass the paper this time round. A pass will do.
& adding on to my previous marks.
Please Please, At least give me a C please. I BEG YOU.
if not, I'm a really very spiderman. I failed in almost everything. :(
Things weren't like this in the past.
i don't even have to study last time and I can A/B easily.
Why-Oh-Why. :(

I don't want to forward module. T_T.
I don't want anymore D/D- in my progress report.
do you know how ugly 0.5 looks? :(

God, Please don't grant me my wishes that was made years ago.
in my secondary school life. I want 1's. A1's
now, I want A also! but B will also do. Please. I'm not that greedy right?

alrights.
byebye.

I just got owned by POA today.

2011-02-22T01:08:00.004+08:00

I shall not elaborate on the paper further. In short.. I lost 26 marks for nothing and screwed up my MCQs.

may god bless me.

Tolong, I don't want to fail. I don't want to forward module.

the main point.
I dont wish to stay another torturing year in poly.

if I do fail, I might:

1) change school within SP

2) change poly

3) repeat that module.

4) go S.I.M

SO. PLEASE. NO. Please do not be so cruel to me. D:

Anyway..

Here's my plans for first week of march.

Oh well,No one is going to Zoo with me.:(

maybe only kindhearted bestfriends of mine like, huiqi and mulan are willing to go with me.

not the rest though.

Not that I don't want to ask. but that few I ask... I always get negative replies. So, No. I'm not asking anymore. if no one were to go with me. I'M GOING ALONE. cause I'm not that alone actually. I have the animals there.

but... if you wish to join me/us. Anyone is welcomed. do text me. or I shall bump into you at the entrance.

and, the most interesting not part is..

I gonna celebrate my birthday at my home again. BBQ/STEAMBOAT AGAIN. T_T.

maybe it's not boring to you guys, but.. it's like-a-boring to me only! :(

but since I want to have a FAMILY dinner tgt. this is wad my mum suggest and wad i get :(

okay,

ANYONE WHO WISHES TO COME. JUST COME.
confirm latest by 3/4 march. cause.. I have to go buy the food.

I may create a FB event, RSVP yourselves.

I might just drop you a message, but the decision is yours.
not that I'm not a good host or what.. It's just that... I'm too sick and tired of calling peoples already.

On the 6th March.

I got CSCC night which I have not paid. T_T. don't know if I still can go though. LOL. but if I can't.. I shall just stay at home lor. then go clubbing with Ivy at night! hahaha!

afternoon.. I have no plans though! should be sleeping de! LOL.

(PS: I'm gonna cancel my tution on 5th and 6th if I can)

On the 4th.

I have Howitzer outing!

hope it'll be a successful one though! haha!

then I might meet up with my seniors XiuZhen, JewYen, LiLai, and some friends maybe? to go PRAWNING or DINNER :D :D! HEHEHE! YES AH!

(self not: rmb to pass them their mini gifts, super belated birthday gifts lah. Dunno if I can still dig it out)

PS: Who's present is still with me? : JinLun's, Apple's, Shjie's, YuXiang's. the rest I lost le. That's it. but I think confirm still have...wait till I find them.

(like super belated.. and it's still within my house)

& I owe!!: my 2 cousins, zhen & kang, My mother, Ain's, min er, YanSan. & my uncle(hepapa). hahaha

(I havent go buy/make finish yet! )

NO ONE ELSE RIGHT?!

Oh, i got some X'mas gifts with me though. but not gonna care! hahaha

PEOPLE, Meet me for your presents. else..

Everyone's gift gonna get confiscated by yours truly when I reached year 2~! Unless you got special reason or... your birthday falls after 1st march. If not.. if you dun claim it. that's it ok? LOL

Back to my schedule.

on the 3rd.

I gotta meet mulan ,huiqi, yuxin to go lunch & bowling! :D! hehehe!

then It's hemama's birthday celebrations!!

(yet again, I have to chg my tuition date to 1st march. if I can.. if not.. have to rush! T_T)

then.. on the 2nd..

Hopefully! a nice class outing!

& a nice dinner tgt?

Shall we go picnic? I know I'm selfish lah. but I want to fly kite. Hahah!

& on the 1st.

I have tution for monisha.

& if I can chg , For hung zhe also.

something better! I gotta go chilling with huiqi @ clarke quay! :D

On the 28th!

It's my last paper! HAPPY LIKE FISH.

also, it's a paper I dun think I will do well...

so right after that paper. I gonna go KBOX with miner to FA XIE!

and best part!

LONG-AWAITED TZE CHAR WITH MDM CHUNG :D!

See, my teacher loves me and miss me so much! ok lah, just bullshitting.

but I got proof one hor! let me tell you why next time! hahaha

Okay, that's about it..

I'm not going playnation.

I'm not going bungee.

I'm not going USS.

I'm not going overseas.

I'm not going singapore flyers.

I'm not going singapore attractions.

I'm not going to do many things I wish and want to.

But trust me!

I will go 1 day! & that one day will arrive soon! :D

but hopefully..

the above plans gonna work out.

Now,

I have to worry for my next paper.

ECONS.

I failed my second test, so I have to work hard for this...

I always hate myself for being sucha last-minute person. but I can't help it.

if I do score badly, I'm not gonna blame anyone but myself.

I truly deserves it.

kthxbye,

Need to wake up at 7 and go pray tmr!

& tuition again!

meeting my Siao ah girl Li ai wei on wed! :D haha. to study!

EDITED* 1.12am
I suggested playnation to xiaoqing for the outing cause we don't know where to go.. & YAY. HAHA.. we're going there if there's no better suggestions! LOL! another wish fulfilled! :D

Edited *2.02 am
Oh, many people asked me what is playnation.
it's a place where you play games and have fun!
& it's also considered quite cheap too!
come, let me share the link with you!
http://playnation.com.sg/#/about-us
See, how nice I am.
always sharing good things:D!
Remember to thanks me kays!
haha! I don't mind if you ask me to intro you for lobangs. cause I do have quite a few! LOL!
& I love sharing! Got Good Things Must Share! :D

Life as a flower.

2011-02-20T01:19:00.001+08:00

Sorry for not updating my blog as frequently,
There are so many things taking place recently...
I don't know how to react.
I hope my family will stay as one. *keeping my finger cross*
& I guess I'm really busy.

With tuitions... miscellaneous stuffs.. & EXAMS. *(T_T)*
Yes, I'm giving tutition to a pri 1 girl and a pri 4 boy.
It's quite fun and a great experience of course!
despite the time & travelling. but think of my students and money. I shall endure!

EXAMS are the real killer! paper starting next monday.
I HAVE NOT STARTED MY REVISION.
feel like slapping myself. :X!

Tolong, ti gong po pi. I wont fail. Cause I dun want to spend more than another 2 years in poly.
My Poly life just sucks max.

Back to the topic.
check the title?
Flower?
Yeap, I'm turning into a flower in 2 weeks time.
十八的姑娘一朵花.
Initially, I'm quite happy. cause my last paper in on 28th. and my birthday is the first day of holiday!
I wanted to go holiday, a short one will do! but I guess I should perish the thoughts cause of many consequences, don't ask me why, just in case I get all emo again.

Then I had plans!
I want to meet up many of my friends! cause it has been so long since I went out with them!
I want to have a good catch up!
I want to have a full-family dinner!
I want to dine out & have nice & yummy meals!
I want to go Zoo/Night Safari/ BirdPark! I want to get the Birthday badge!
I want go marina barrage and fly kite! (never been there before!)
I want go playnation and try out all the games!
I want go sing K!
I want go prawning!
I want go take singapore flyers!
I want go universal studio!
I want go try bungee jumping!

(okay, the last 3 is very ex, I shall save it for next time. on other special days!)

And, I went round asking my friends to go to those mention above with me.

& FYI, I just ask them out. I didn't thick skinly tell them it's my birthday!

cause I dun want them to splurge on me. But I do wish for a simple handmade card;)

& I expect more from close friends!!

But... most of them couldn't make it. Although I don't mind having belated celebrations. but... I'm have busy schedules! :( then kinda like, the mood is not there anymore. I dunno how to explain.
Haish, In fact, I think I have no friends, no one wants to celebrate my birthday with me.

Maybe I should just rot at home.
that's my life as a flower.
mummy told me, it's quite impossible to dine out as a family together.. & ask me to have BBQ/Steamboat at home. But seriously, like-a-boring. & most importantly, I don't know who to call.
I dunno, I'm just so sad. 我不要过生日了。

If only I was rich enough.
I would book a yatch for my 18, and a ballroom with hotels on my 21st.

okay, I'm not hoping for anything for my birthday already.

please just let me be LUCKY.
(I'm that greedy, Let me explain)

I want to be lucky not only in gambling, but also in relationships with Family/friends. & of course winning and exams. & I want to be a bless girl that gives blessing. (that's my aim)
*Please do not let me meet sucky people, fail my exam.etc etc...-CHOY-!*
when I'm lucky enough to achieve all those.
I will be happy.

When I'm happy...

I think I will be healthier ( not talking about fat though, I can also 肥的很健康!)

the earth will be full of love and warmth. & everything is just made simpler! even the earth can be in a form of heart-shape!

There will be war peace and qaurrel/fights free! Cause when I'm lucky, I can prevent all these from happening!

and when I'm lucky.
I will be rich....
When I'm rich, I will be able to own and buy almost everything. (besides happiness... but I'm gonna be happy when I'm lucky!)
I wont have to worry about so many little things in life.
I can do almost everything!
When I'm happy and rich.
I rule and dominate. :D
I'm a big step closer to my dream! (almost there actually!)
I can afford to pay for what I want and what I dream to have! (condo, cars..etc)
I will be able to provide more for my parents and hepapa, hemama.
I can give them better lives. with everything in tip-top condition.
I can build my home for elderly and childrens!
I will be able to reach out to more & let them be happy.
So as long as I can benefit others, and let majority be happy.
I will be even happier.

Okay, maybe I'm not expecting that much.
Just let me be lucky!
Be lucky in all aspects!
let me be lucky so I can bless everyone around me!
I can provide them with solutions using my LUCK.
And everyone will be happy!

But please do not let me be so lucky that I will depend everything on my luck.. cause I know I have to work hard for what I want also. Yes I will. I wont be so plain lazy. Just bless and guide me in every way. Cause I really want to crave out a name on my own. I really want to achieve. I'm turning 18 soon, & I really wish that I can achieve something in life. (as much as possible!) Although having a simple life is good but I don't want it to be dull. I want to live my life fruitfully in a simple way! & fully make use of it! 我要活得充实和有价值！I know I can and I want to. I want my life to be not only my life, but also a life that enriches others. I want to love,care and share as much as I could.

* If you dun understand what the lucky thing is talking about, then nehmind*

Alrights.
Now, Wish me good luck for my papers!